Finally I'm able to type again. I've been wasting don't know how many minutes when I'm supposed to be sleeping now. But I want to say my piece before I sleep. I can't sleep just now, I typed very long words of my thoughts and it's not save and it's gone as I'm using phone to blog. This's the first time i'm using phone to blog. I can't sleep and I'm thinking of my surgery all day long. Within 24 hours, I'll think of the surgery as initially I was afraid of the pain i''ll be enduring. But now I'm scared of the risk and the money. General anaesthetic or local? This's not the first time I'm doing surgery, it's my second but I'm still feeling scared and nervous as Sis said general anaesthetic has risk but I'm unsure if local anaesthetic has risk. Actually I've plan some questions to ask the surgeon.. I've been thinking about Grandpa just now. I miss him a lot and I know most probably I won't see him anymore but I hope I'll someday but if there's recarnation, maybe he's already in a new world :'( I... Some things I just can't say here, it's so torturing. I want to say so much things but some things I just can't say it if not I don't know what will happen. Some people love to pick on me a lot, I still young what. Some of my friends have told me "God bless you" and I've just this kind of feeling, in this world, none care for you cause they're not you. Weird thought huh? But that's really how I feel. Or it applies to me only? Ha ha. *sad laugh* last but not least, I've always wished for Grandma to sit on her own, I really hope God can grant me this wish, let me faiaint, I don't mind!! Life.......... Torture? Happy? Hard? Short? Unpredictable? I don't know.... Many more. This's life and I don't really like they way it are. But I just have to accept it cause I can't change it. Live for the moment.
