I miss the starry sky at Grandpa's Hainan Dao house's rooftop!
I miss drinking there with the starry sky!
There's always another time, the 5th time.
By then, I might still miss it or it might mean nothing to me already.
But for me, Grandpa's Hainan Dao house always mean something. It's special cause it's bought by Grandpa.
Everything there has Grandpa inside. Grandpa hard earned money to buy that house and kept building it to four storey.

Having Grandma by my side is bliss, like Grandpa is here too! :)))
我很幸福！！！:D
Mum asked me if I feel bliss in this family.
I smiled and replied her after a few minutes 'Not bad because Mum very dote on me, Sis quite dote on me although her attitude not good sometimes, also, I've Grandma by my side, I feel bliss'.
Actually I wanted to say 'This family is great already'.
Mum did say about Dad, she said 'You can just ignore Dad'.
She also said 'It's fate we're in a family'.
As my Dad seldom care about us and is afraid to pay money for our things, no matter school fees, school books, all things regarding school, my doctor's fees, even my pocket money sometimes.
He will nag how much he has given for this family while my Mum has given a lot more than he does.
I really shall not think too much, it'll only make me headache.
I've such a great Mum, I'll treasure her forever and hope she is happy everyday! ♥♥♥
I felt happy to see and hear Grandma said 'What're you doing' with a cute expression and she said 'I feel very full already' as I gave her drink a product.
I asked her to sleep, she replied 'WA, I slept for so long, anytime I can sleep, enough already'.
Then I laughed and kissed her. Hehehe. I shall go and see if she is asleep.

I always feel so bliss with Grandma by my side.
Suddenly, I feel like I want a friend by my side but I'm too sleepy.
Suyin cannot stay until tomorrow, only can stay till mid-night.
Lily can stay till tomorrow but it's too dangerous for a girl to go out at this time.
I've great friends around, isn't it?
I'm super power, I can sleep at 2 + in the afternoon yesterday when I'm supposed to sleep the day before.
The most power thing is that I'm still thinking about Mac'Donalds when I'm super full right now.

Had Magnum Almond just now, tried Magnum Gold few days ago.
Magnum Almond is still the best!

I shall take a bath and take a nap. I don't think it'll be a nap but I really need someone by my side.

Well, never mind.

Initially, I didn't notice the similarity in them.
Until the first episode of 'Boys over flower' showed on TV.
My Sis said 'Don't you think the leader look like Jerry Yan'?
I answered 'Which one? No'.
When time goes by, I noticed the similarity.
Didn't know majority also think they look alike.
I was thinking if Korea's director purposely find a person who look so much like Jerry Yan or is it just pure coincidence.
Once when Lee Min Ho came to Singapore, the host/repoter asked him.. If I'm not wrong..
'Do you know who is Jerry Yan? Do you think you all look alike? Many people think you all look alike.'
He answered 'Yes, I look forward to cooperate with him if possible'.



Something is very wrong with my memory.
I THINK my Mum didn't told me which NTUC Fairprice to search for her yet 2 times I told Brother the other way round.
How come it just don't happen the way I said???
It's either Bedok Ntuc which is near my place or Bedok Interchange 24 hours Ntuc.
Made brother walked all the way to Bedok Ntuc twice and made Brother cycled half way to Bedok Interchange.
Very apologetic about that! :/

Can't wait for Ktv with Darling!
Can't wait for later on gathering with Clique!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!

I had fun, especially when I eat and with Grandma and friends by my side.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Can't wait for taking out stitches!
Can't wait for Family reunion on Grandma's birthday!!!

Few days ago, Grandma, Mum, Brother, Sri and I went to the Market.
Long time didn't went there! Looking at all those fish and meat. Those bloods.
Love looking at organic vegetables and fruits! Super crowded. Great business.
But the Uncle selling organic vegetables eyesight is not good, I'm worried for him that some people might cheat his money..
Once he gave my Mum too much change, my Mum told him to take note.
Moreover, I realised there is Malay selling fish and meat in the Market too.
Anyway, hope Shiela's leg is not abscess. Let's see what the Doctor says tomorrow.
:)

Don't think too much my dear.
See, I'm fine too. Just that it hurts during the process.
'No pain, No gain.' That's what people always tell me.
:)))

Neenee's Great Grandma! Miss her super much!!

Neenee, My beloved Niece. Miss her super much too! See her sweet smile :)))

Super cold in one of the places. Specially visited that place. A very high mountain place. Natural.

Grandma is always and forever adorable to me! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Yesterday I'd a long sleep, I woke up in the afternoon 3pm ++.
Straightaway, I walked to Grandma's room.
Brother told me she kept calling for me from morning.
She's not a sweet person but she was so sweet to me.
She asked me if the surgery's spot still hurts. I told her a little and she told me stories of hers.
Most of her words, I don't understand as I'm not really good in Hainanese. I HATE IT!!!
I really need to buck up my Hainanese. How great if Grandma knows how to speak Chinese.
I hope my Hainanese will improve if I learn bit by bit everyday!!!
Grandma lies on bed, it's very torture for her and for anyone to lie on bed everyday and only once awhile can get her to the wheelchair.
I'm glad for Mum suggested Grandma to move back, she slept on the bed for half a year at Ang Mo Kio and not more than 10 times she was carried to the wheelchair.
Only when we helped her bath, then can carry her to the wheelchair for few minutes.
Maybe some people think it's a nuisance/unlucky to take care of Old folks.
But for Mum and I, is our fortune! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I love seeing Grandma everyday and it's better for me, I don't need to take an hour bus back and forth to Ang Mo Kio.
Sigh... It's sad when Grandma said when she wants to find me, she can't as she can't walk but I can go find her.
As she was calling for my name from morning until I woke up in the afternoon.
I sincerely hope Grandma can sit up and at least can walk a little bit and I'll be really grateful.
I will sacrifice my time just to accompany Grandma every single day and I said it, I can sacrifice anything except for the worst thing I'm scared of, God knows.
I also know I'm scared of pain but for Grandma.. It is ok. I'll just cry awhile or something.
Seeing her is the best, having Grandma is so great.
Thinking back last time I wasn't close to her, didn't really spoke to each other.
As she can walk last time, can sit last time and only need to rely on Grandpa.
When I visited Grandma and Grandpa, she only spoke to Aunts, Uncle and My Mum.
Maybe she spoke to we all, grandchildren but I've no memories about that.
I told Grandma about this but I don't think she understand, if she understand, GREAT! :D
Whenever someone asked me about my surgery, I can remember the process.
Didn't know it'll hurts so much. Whenever I clean the surgery's spot, I feel a little scared actually.
As it's the first time in my life I've stitches in my skin.
I also told Grandma if I know Hainanese, I can talk to her many things as I got many things to tell her.
I also said, if Grandma know Chinese also good.
And that those who know Hainanese don't really talk to her.
What is with people? Why is it like this?
She laughed anyway. HEHEHE! ^-^
Grandma asked me about 2 hours ago how old am I. I told her 15. Not sure if she understand.
I think she replied '30++'? So I repeated '15' again. Think she understand. I don't look like 30! HAHA.
She asked me or told me many things when she woke up in the middle of the mid-night but I couldn't answer her and I could only say I don't understand what you're saying, Ahpo.

Anyway, I want to exercise! But I couldn't because of my surgery.
I feel so fat. As always.
But I still need to eat, I still need to keep eating. HAHAHA.
Always using medicine as a excuse but it's the fact.
Alright, I need to go bathe now, apply cream and put plaster.
SO WARM!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like saying F.

I LOVE GRANDMA!!!!!!!!!!
You know how much I love her.
Like you can never imagine.

14 June, steamboat with Clique.

I look forward to seeing Grandma being carried to the Wheelchair everyday's evening.
She said to me 'Don't keep caring about me, your arm is more important'.
I answered 'You're important, my hand is not important'.
Actually I wanted to say 'You're important than my hand, of course my hand is also important'.
I just don't know how to say in Hainanese...

Alright, hope tomorrow pass fast please!!!
Hope it's the cleaning of the bacteria and hope it won't cost over $50.
Hope it won't hurts so much like today.
Excising my Cyst already cost $185, which is far from what the Doctor said on my last visit, $100.
I don't understand why add $85.

I hope that Grandma's teeth will be perfectly fixed back tomorrow.
Will get it as soon as possible after I visit the Clinic.

I was so pissed when my house Maid, Sri.
As I blogged before I don't want like calling Maid, Maid.
So I shall type by her name, Sri. 35 minutes ago, she was telling my Mum she wants to go down as her friend from Tampines came to Bedok.
If I'm not wrong, I think her friend is married to the Owner here. If not why would she have so much freedom?
I know some Maids have many freedom but not many of them.
My Mum let her go down as sometimes need to give her some freedom, Mum gave her 10 minutes.
As some Maids will keep hatred in heart and bully the person she is taking care of. It's true.
She went down 25 minutes. Never mind, we let her off this time. Gave her one chance.
Her friend intelligent, brought Sri to Coffee shop and treated us to Tea.
Well, my Mum was saying 'Not sure if they got add ingredients'.
I answered 'Don't think so much'.
Super intelligent of them. Very.
However, the tea taste quite nice.

My Grandma super adorable.
I told her 'The Maid clever, she went down find her friend for a very long time
(I address her as 'Maid' in front of Grandma as Grandma don't know how to pronounce 'Sri' and don't understand 'Sri' this name.)
She replied 'Let her go down lor'.
I replied 'NO, cannot let her go down so long, later she don't listen to us'.
She replied 'If she don't listen, sack her. She is here to take care of me'.
SO CLEVER AND ADORABLE OF MY CUTE GRANDMA.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

We're not bullies. So we didn't reprimand her for going out 25 minutes when Mum said 10 minutes.
But Mum told her not every time can go out for so long.
Let her happy awhile also good. She's also a human being.
Who likes to be Maid? Nobody has the choice. But if no Maid, who take care of the needy or the house?
When some people is to busy to clean the house and to take care of old folks/babies/anyone.

Also, I told Grandma to say to me: 我愛你。
She really said it. Super cute of her to say it in chinese. Made me so happy.
Hainanese 'I love you' is quite similar to Chinese 'I love you'. Only the 'I' and the 'You' pronunciation different.

Met some of my friends almost every single day. It feels good! :)))
It's just bad for our health and my eye bag is getting thicker and blacker!!!
I would always sleep in the morning and wake up in the afternoon. This is super mad!!!
Because I'm always out at block down stair or at friend's house. And this becomes my routine.
Since it's the June holidays, it's quite alright.
BUT I've to get rid of this habit, I can't keep staying out late as school is going to reopen in 13 more days!
Sorry people who don't want to get reminded of school reopen.
Me myself I have to constantly remind myself that SCHOOL IS FUCKING REOPENING SOON.
My clique staying out till early in the morning don't work as 6 members. The most 4 people would stay.
It's always like that. Hope it'll be 6 people one fine day? If possible.
AWESOME OR NOT, I'm not sure.
Because I'm feeling deadbeat every single day.
And I've not done a single shit.
I've done half way meeting my beloved lost friends like Weiting and Liyin.
Haven't get the chance to meet Racy and gather with Shuyuan, Sixian etc as a group.
I got to be at home straight after school as Grandma is at my house now.
It's so hard for me but I got to try my best and I must do it. Grandma is too important to me.

However, I'm starting to like Soccer! ♥♥
It's weird how I feel irritated when I want that Country to win the match.

Meeting up with Suyin and Weikiat last minute. I ♥ mid-night hanging out.
I ♥ honesty. I ♥ Grandma. I ♥ Family. I ♥ Friends. I ♥ Dramas. I ♥ Yellow.

Shiela came to my house not long ago to cook Fried rice and Macaroni.
Thanks a lot my dear!!!
I can learn to cook and cook for Sri(maid), Grandma, Father/Brother, Weikiat, Shiela and myself.
Going Ktv with them in about 1 hour' time. Hope Brother will reach home not too late.
While I was feeding Grandma just now, she was saying how terrible she is lying on bed.
I'm not in her shoes, I can't understand how she feel lying on the bed, but I know she must feel super super super terrible and upset.
All I can do is to go in the room often, talk to her, help her and kiss her.
I told her 'Don't think this way' but I know she can't stop thinking as she thinks that she is useless.
BUT SHE IS NOT. Sigh. Feel like crying when I type this sentence right now.
I'm really alright with it for anything I need to help her with, she has got me, My Mum, My Family and also my Relatives.
Seeing her eating so little feels really.. She ate not more than 10 spoon, big spoon.
Alright, shall go accompany her now.
God bless. ♥

I feel so apologetic to Mum. Luckily she said 'It's alright'. I feel so much better.
:)))

So upset. Today cannot remove Cyst. Next week then can. $100!!! )= Sigh.
The medicine itself already cost $48. Because infection. I feel so stupid.
I should have remove it the first time I had it.
Alright, shouldn't think of it anymore if not it will do me no good.
I shall listen to Mum. Also, I shall be positive and happy.

I LOVE GRANDMA.

My Dad is seriously not a caring person.
But what he showed me today was he cares.
He brought me to 2 clinic though it was closed for the afternoon.
We wasted our trip but he didn't complained which I'm grateful for that.
Thanks Liyin and Shiela for sending me good wishes, it means a lot to me.
:)))

It breaks my heart to see Grandma in so much pain and feeling itchy but there's nothing much we can do.
She was blathering nonsense and negative thoughts again. It sucks so much to hear those words from her.
But I know she feels very miserable inside. Hope from today onwards, it'll get better for her.

Anyway, hope my lump will be excised by tomorrow!!! I'M.A.BRAVE.GIRL

Today was a fruitful day as Grandma is at my house, beside me.
Those words came from Grandma's mouth, made me so scared.
I hope she is happy moving to my house and hope she is happy every moment.
I hope she will get better each day as she seems to weaken a lot.
Pass it to me~

God bless.

Ktv session with Weiting and Lily! ♥♥

Perhaps it's time for me to control my diet and it'll be quite easy from now onwards.. I guess.
Since I've left not much cash inside my white-yellow-brown wallet, it's white in colour when I first bought it if I'm not mistaken.
I don't even know if Dad will give me pocket money for lunch and dinner for the day before.
As I took my red packet given by Grandma, I want to put the money back.
Have been eating too much nowadays, even when I feel full, I still can squeeze food inside my mouth.
Alright, I was telling Weikiat I'll be sleeping at 4am and guess what, more than 50% of the housework is still not done.
I keep seeing Lizard/Gecko around.. Eww. I don't understand why. Or I wasn't observant in the past?
85 supper with Clique was great!!! ^-^ Finally saw Shiela and Sharon!
Accompanied Shiela walked home and cycled Sharon home, saw Brother and he was telling me Mum and Dad quarreled.
It's the 1 2 3 times or maybe even more than that, luckily I wasn't home.
But Dad was overboard for not keeping his promise and saying Grandma.. I don't know what?
I also don't want to hear if not I'll bear grudges.. for a long time.
I do not want to bear grudges towards Dad anymore, but since he wants to do it, so let it be.
I felt like a puppet... Just now, few hours ago, that short moment.
Never mind. Doesn't matter??? I think.

My lump is back. Is it because I don't have self-control? Must be!
The hatred is back towards some of my friends? Not really counted as 'hatred', sort of.
Feel so immature but I just couldn't control what I want to say and it's the facts.
I was happy seeing every single one of my friends, however.. Forget it. I'm just not happy.

I want to drink, seriously.
I won't as I'll have self-control.
I shall manage my emotion well. I'll try.
I want to shout it out loud and enjoy myself with Clique, soon?
Ktv sessions ♥ Never ending.

I wish, I hope..
Sufficient money for Ktv sessions, meeting up with some friends and Movie sessions.
Not to forget, Mahjiong sessions!!! ♥
I got to learn rollarblading soon.. I've many things I want to learn. I've not yet learn swimming! HAHAHAHAHA. It's hard for me. Tell me, is it so hard?!

What matters now is..
What matters now is..
What matters now is... YES!!
GRANDMA WILL BE MOVING BACK TO MY HOUSE IN ABOUT 5 - 6 hours time!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
:))) My love, my priority, my forever, my precious, my darling, my grandma, my kpo!
Love her so much! YES! I'll be seeing her everyday from today onwards!!!
Hope June will pass not too fast and everyday will be a fruitful day!
God bless Grandma to be able to sit up by herself and stand by herself with her walking stick to support.

TOMORROW WILL GET BETTER.
:)

Believe.. in hopes.
I will.

It doesn't matter if I suffer a little bit. As long as Grandma is fine and as long as I can be there.
I just love her so much like noboby can imagine. Grandpa loved her so much too, right..

Clicked on Xinyi's blog and saw Huimin's photos again.. I don't know what to say.
It feels really.. Indescribable.
Looked through Shiela's blog photos and some parts of her entries, I feel so unbearable.
So unbearable to leave this school, this class, this clique and those teachers in the coming 3 - 4 months.
3 - 4 months is very fast, it will pass very very very fast.
And my secondary school life will be gone, the moments with clique might be gone too.
Perhaps it's what I'm afraid of...
I feel so silly. Whatever.

I don't want to miss any chance to meet any of my friends.
So whenever I'm really free, I'll accept any friends' request to go out or take the initiative to ask them out.

Oh! I didn't realised I've typed I'll blog everyday.
Seriously, I've nothing much to say on blog now.
Shall just say what is on my mind now!
I miss Sharon and Shiela suddenly. I miss Merlene! Kind of miss Weikiat too!
=)

These few days had been quite fruitful.
I super love ktv!

Anyway, saw a dead Lizard on my Dad's room wall. -goosebumps-
I'm still thinking of it almost everynow and then. Don't dare to look at it whenever I've to walk pass it.

Being with each and single of my friends, I feel so happy! :)))

Name: Wang/Ong Jiale
Age: 20
Nationality: Singaporean
Zodiac: Leo

Grandma & Family is always my top priority.
basketball, badminton, pingpong, softball.
I started to read books after twilight were published.
Hate heavy metal and techno, sucks.
movies, shopping, eating, studying.
soft-hearted. easily influence. friendly if you know me well.
anti-social by the face. talkative and nonsense.
true to friends and easily trust people.
loves to laughs, love to joke.

. Grandma to sit up soon!!
. FIFTH CHINA TRIP!!!!! <3
. Trip to KOREA, HONGKONG, TAIWAN, JAPAN AND NEWYORK
. Roam around the world
. Overseas trip with best buds

. FOLDED WALLET!!
. COLLAR LONG SLEEVE SHIRT!
. LONG SLEEVE DRESS!!!!!