Tuesday, September 30, 2008 @ 12:50 PM
Trying to calm down, trying to.
Still, I can't, I got to rant.
妈的。In my life, I hate the most is getting accuse for nothing! Damn it.
I scolded Dad 'nabei' in a fit of anger, I regretted it.
But he was at fault too. Coming back home early, is a crime?!?!
DAD ACCUSED ME OF NOT GOING TO SCHOOL WHEREAS I'M IN SCHOOL UNIFORM. I KNOW SOME KIDS WHEN THEY WANT TO SKIP SCHOOL, THEY FAKE WEARING UNIFORM, BUT I'M NOT THAT STUPID, I WANT TO POTENT, I'll WEAR HOME CLOTHES AND GO OUT EARLY, IF NOT SLEEP LIKE A LOG AND PRETEND I SLEPT OVER.
Was abit pissed with Mum at first, cause she thought I skipped school too.
After that, I told her about Dad accused me. She said she was kidding about saying that thought.
But Dad wasn't, he seriously think I skipped school.
Then he just sprout out nonsense and said 'potent king' and kept repeating.
Childish and irritating isn't it? Many more actions he've done in the past which is similar to this.
Wtf, I know I sometimes skipped school before EOY, but he also shouldn't be like that.
I know, 'once bitten, twice shy'. But get to the point, shouldn't he trust me when its exam period?
Its ridiculous of him to say this, and its frustrating! Screw him!
I really wish to screw him at that point of time! Grr!
He thinks he's right when he never ask me the truth.
He said it so whatever, still shoot me what 'ah lian ah hua' when it isn't true.
Doesn't mean I scolded him 'nabei', I'm a hooligan.
Everybody in this world use vulgarities, don't they.
He's like the same as my school dm.
Accused my friend as hooligan just cause she ran away from her.
Cause who want to stay back with dm just cause of attire wrong, waste of time isn't it.
Thus she said a hooligan run -.- No link isn't it.
Everybody in the world run.
I care if Dad trust me, even though I don't really care about him.
But I care about his money, cause I need money. LOLAHLOL.
I know I'm too frank. But seriously, Dad seldom automatic give me my pocket money.
He only gives me when I beg from him or remind him. Its tired to do that every now and then.
And even by doing this, it makes me stress. Then, when holiday I asked him from money when I really have none, he would say house got food, you can eat at home.
But when I'm outside, I need some money too, don't I.
Its like wtf. I really hate him for being like that. Makes me have to work, which I'm unwilling to.
As the pay is so little, yet I've to work long hours.
Even though, Mum can give me money, its hard on her. So I rather work on my own and get extra money.
He like that, never mind, but you know what or not, he asked 'even i give you pocket money, i also not sure if you'll repay me'.
Is a Dad supposed to talk like this? Maybe brother set a bad example, but Sister did set a good example despite Dad is a stingy man.
So its right of Sis to dote Mum more, I believe.
When I grow up, I earn money, I'll definitely give Mum more money too.
Cause she've been supporting us, sacrifice herself, giving us whatever we want.
Despite Brother is a quite a failure, Sister is a success, me? I still not sure.
Still, we're her children, she believe its a duty of her to take care of us.
So I would say I'm really glad that at least I've a good Mum.
Sometimes I really envy some schoolmates of mine, every now and then got parents drive them to school.
But when my Dad have a car, he don't drives me to school, he only use it for his own convenient.
Unless special event.. How much I beg him, even when I going to late, he also won't care.
If Mum knows how to drive, no matter how tired she is, she confirm will drive me to school.
Unlike Dad, always complains he tired and lazy.
When he only eat, play, sleep and sometimes work.
When Mum works at home almost 24/7.
Mum tired, I trust her.
Dad? Drink drunk only, how can I bring myself to believe him?!?!?
I seriously think I'm that useless to this family.
And I'm worry about Grandma and money not enough for this family.
You know, I seriously need a job. Sigh.
But.. Someone selfish won't help me when bestie hinted her about it.
Thats why when bestie told me to ask her, I ignored. Cause I know she won't help despite how much I claimed I need money.
This goes on, the savings of mine used in Malacca is not going to get easy to save back.
Still, I can't, I got to rant.
妈的。In my life, I hate the most is getting accuse for nothing! Damn it.
I scolded Dad 'nabei' in a fit of anger, I regretted it.
But he was at fault too. Coming back home early, is a crime?!?!
DAD ACCUSED ME OF NOT GOING TO SCHOOL WHEREAS I'M IN SCHOOL UNIFORM. I KNOW SOME KIDS WHEN THEY WANT TO SKIP SCHOOL, THEY FAKE WEARING UNIFORM, BUT I'M NOT THAT STUPID, I WANT TO POTENT, I'll WEAR HOME CLOTHES AND GO OUT EARLY, IF NOT SLEEP LIKE A LOG AND PRETEND I SLEPT OVER.
Was abit pissed with Mum at first, cause she thought I skipped school too.
After that, I told her about Dad accused me. She said she was kidding about saying that thought.
But Dad wasn't, he seriously think I skipped school.
Then he just sprout out nonsense and said 'potent king' and kept repeating.
Childish and irritating isn't it? Many more actions he've done in the past which is similar to this.
Wtf, I know I sometimes skipped school before EOY, but he also shouldn't be like that.
I know, 'once bitten, twice shy'. But get to the point, shouldn't he trust me when its exam period?
Its ridiculous of him to say this, and its frustrating! Screw him!
I really wish to screw him at that point of time! Grr!
He thinks he's right when he never ask me the truth.
He said it so whatever, still shoot me what 'ah lian ah hua' when it isn't true.
Doesn't mean I scolded him 'nabei', I'm a hooligan.
Everybody in this world use vulgarities, don't they.
He's like the same as my school dm.
Accused my friend as hooligan just cause she ran away from her.
Cause who want to stay back with dm just cause of attire wrong, waste of time isn't it.
Thus she said a hooligan run -.- No link isn't it.
Everybody in the world run.
I care if Dad trust me, even though I don't really care about him.
But I care about his money, cause I need money. LOLAHLOL.
I know I'm too frank. But seriously, Dad seldom automatic give me my pocket money.
He only gives me when I beg from him or remind him. Its tired to do that every now and then.
And even by doing this, it makes me stress. Then, when holiday I asked him from money when I really have none, he would say house got food, you can eat at home.
But when I'm outside, I need some money too, don't I.
Its like wtf. I really hate him for being like that. Makes me have to work, which I'm unwilling to.
As the pay is so little, yet I've to work long hours.
Even though, Mum can give me money, its hard on her. So I rather work on my own and get extra money.
He like that, never mind, but you know what or not, he asked 'even i give you pocket money, i also not sure if you'll repay me'.
Is a Dad supposed to talk like this? Maybe brother set a bad example, but Sister did set a good example despite Dad is a stingy man.
So its right of Sis to dote Mum more, I believe.
When I grow up, I earn money, I'll definitely give Mum more money too.
Cause she've been supporting us, sacrifice herself, giving us whatever we want.
Despite Brother is a quite a failure, Sister is a success, me? I still not sure.
Still, we're her children, she believe its a duty of her to take care of us.
So I would say I'm really glad that at least I've a good Mum.
Sometimes I really envy some schoolmates of mine, every now and then got parents drive them to school.
But when my Dad have a car, he don't drives me to school, he only use it for his own convenient.
Unless special event.. How much I beg him, even when I going to late, he also won't care.
If Mum knows how to drive, no matter how tired she is, she confirm will drive me to school.
Unlike Dad, always complains he tired and lazy.
When he only eat, play, sleep and sometimes work.
When Mum works at home almost 24/7.
Mum tired, I trust her.
Dad? Drink drunk only, how can I bring myself to believe him?!?!?
I seriously think I'm that useless to this family.
And I'm worry about Grandma and money not enough for this family.
You know, I seriously need a job. Sigh.
But.. Someone selfish won't help me when bestie hinted her about it.
Thats why when bestie told me to ask her, I ignored. Cause I know she won't help despite how much I claimed I need money.
This goes on, the savings of mine used in Malacca is not going to get easy to save back.
Monday, September 29, 2008 @ 10:47 AM
Hi all readers! :) It's been long since I last blogged.
Few days ago, computer went through some problem, kept auto shut. It's fixed, once again.
Luckily I got a big sister @ home who is good at computer or her's boyfriend is good at it.
If not I also don't know which year, which month I can use this computer again.
Woots, I've succeeded not drinking bubble tea for 2 days.
I'm going to carry this on till 30 october. Trying not to drink it for one month.
Its easy, right? I can do it. Hehehehehehe.
I'm having back out thoughts, still thinking if I should do hair extension.
Thinking if long hair suit me, maybe yes, maybe not.
Maybe not as what I think or you all think. My imaginations about me with long hair is quite ok.
But still, can't bring myself to totally agree to doing hair extension.
Don't worry Racy, I'll still accompany you to hair extension and decide by then if I want. Hah.
Ok, shall blog sometime again when I've the time or feeling energetic to blog.
Oh ya, nearly forgot to wish my brother happy 25th birthday! =D Hope he enjoyed yesterday.
Once again, happy 25th birthday brother! (: The ong ong ong's family. Hehehe.
Will upload the cake of my brother birthday till my computer totally recovery.
There's no volume, no media tv. There's only msn, friendster, facebook and blogs to use.
No songs, no nothing. But got computer! xD Better than nothing.
Good luck to me for my math paper this coming friday ! OMG .
This is, my brother.
My cute cutie grandma. :) <3>
Few days ago, computer went through some problem, kept auto shut. It's fixed, once again.
Luckily I got a big sister @ home who is good at computer or her's boyfriend is good at it.
If not I also don't know which year, which month I can use this computer again.
Woots, I've succeeded not drinking bubble tea for 2 days.
I'm going to carry this on till 30 october. Trying not to drink it for one month.
Its easy, right? I can do it. Hehehehehehe.
I'm having back out thoughts, still thinking if I should do hair extension.
Thinking if long hair suit me, maybe yes, maybe not.
Maybe not as what I think or you all think. My imaginations about me with long hair is quite ok.
But still, can't bring myself to totally agree to doing hair extension.
Don't worry Racy, I'll still accompany you to hair extension and decide by then if I want. Hah.
Ok, shall blog sometime again when I've the time or feeling energetic to blog.
Oh ya, nearly forgot to wish my brother happy 25th birthday! =D Hope he enjoyed yesterday.
Once again, happy 25th birthday brother! (: The ong ong ong's family. Hehehe.
Will upload the cake of my brother birthday till my computer totally recovery.
There's no volume, no media tv. There's only msn, friendster, facebook and blogs to use.
No songs, no nothing. But got computer! xD Better than nothing.
Good luck to me for my math paper this coming friday ! OMG .
This is, my brother.
My cute cutie grandma. :) <3>
Thursday, September 25, 2008 @ 4:09 PM
YOU'RE BACK TO YOUR USUAL-SELF, THE OLD YOU!
I hate it, you know it so, I don't like, you hold it on.
Why not you just shut the fuck up and stop following me when there's no others?!
Apparently, you're just using me fucker. And us, you selfish bimbo.
I don't like your hypocrite-ness. It sucks and you're lousy at acting my friend(:
You're still acting good, go mediacorp act lah. Since you so like to act.
Wake up your sense and better do some soul-searching before you get retribution.
You think I like scolding you and telling you off?
If it's not for we've known each other for so long, I would just heck care.
You use people and give so many excuses, think about how that guy will feel if you're him.
I'll feel definitely upset and wanna kill you if I'm him, cause you're a whore.
You're so cheap and so inhuman. You actually wanna use him and get back another guy.
You only think of your own feelings and not the guy you wanna use. Selfish isn't it?
I'm seriously not gonna be soft-hearted and pity you else'more.
NO MORE CHANCE, NO MORE! I'm stupid to give you chance again and again.
How am I going to give you change else'more when you've become this state?
I still treat you as a friend and didn't told you off infront of my close friends and didn't backstab you to them or rant to them instead when I feel like confiding to them.
Cause I still give you face and I don't want them to worry about me or've more bad impression of you.
You know I've enough and I wonder would you change. Cause I think you're hopeless.
You've proven me you're HOPELESS . You know it yourself .
And I'm so gonna be fake with you , h-y-p-o-r-c-r-i-t-e !
You chose this road yourself , and I'm so gonna be a hypocrite only to you , the whole world , ONLY YOU ! =) Honoured or not ? Hehe .
SO gonna give you excuses , pangseh and attitude you , give you back whatever you give me .
Not gonna give in or be soft - hearted anymore . Not gonna be a true friend or whatever .
Damn you !
If you not gonna change , I not gonna be nice to you too .
Perhaps you'll never change and that's IT .
All depends on you , my BELOVED FRIEND .
Seriously , its enough .
Its either we're still friends forever, friends forever , if not GONE .
'byebye to our friendship'.
Depends if you'll change or still remain .
You might need time , I'm okay .
It just all depends if you can sacrifice for your friends to be the better you .
Or choose to be the forever hypocrite . Your choice , your life .
If not , no more negotiation .
Argh!!! How can I avoid you? When people are giving us chances to be together, again and again.
Nevertheless end, even though I hate you to be there.
Its a problem, its a problem.
Your decision/lies always change. Are you still a human?!?!
Are you still my friend?!?! Are you still the old you?!?! I'm going bonkers..
I hate it, you know it so, I don't like, you hold it on.
Why not you just shut the fuck up and stop following me when there's no others?!
Apparently, you're just using me fucker. And us, you selfish bimbo.
I don't like your hypocrite-ness. It sucks and you're lousy at acting my friend(:
You're still acting good, go mediacorp act lah. Since you so like to act.
Wake up your sense and better do some soul-searching before you get retribution.
You think I like scolding you and telling you off?
If it's not for we've known each other for so long, I would just heck care.
You use people and give so many excuses, think about how that guy will feel if you're him.
I'll feel definitely upset and wanna kill you if I'm him, cause you're a whore.
You're so cheap and so inhuman. You actually wanna use him and get back another guy.
You only think of your own feelings and not the guy you wanna use. Selfish isn't it?
I'm seriously not gonna be soft-hearted and pity you else'more.
NO MORE CHANCE, NO MORE! I'm stupid to give you chance again and again.
How am I going to give you change else'more when you've become this state?
I still treat you as a friend and didn't told you off infront of my close friends and didn't backstab you to them or rant to them instead when I feel like confiding to them.
Cause I still give you face and I don't want them to worry about me or've more bad impression of you.
You know I've enough and I wonder would you change. Cause I think you're hopeless.
You've proven me you're HOPELESS . You know it yourself .
And I'm so gonna be fake with you , h-y-p-o-r-c-r-i-t-e !
You chose this road yourself , and I'm so gonna be a hypocrite only to you , the whole world , ONLY YOU ! =) Honoured or not ? Hehe .
SO gonna give you excuses , pangseh and attitude you , give you back whatever you give me .
Not gonna give in or be soft - hearted anymore . Not gonna be a true friend or whatever .
Damn you !
If you not gonna change , I not gonna be nice to you too .
Perhaps you'll never change and that's IT .
All depends on you , my BELOVED FRIEND .
Seriously , its enough .
Its either we're still friends forever, friends forever , if not GONE .
'byebye to our friendship'.
Depends if you'll change or still remain .
You might need time , I'm okay .
It just all depends if you can sacrifice for your friends to be the better you .
Or choose to be the forever hypocrite . Your choice , your life .
If not , no more negotiation .
Argh!!! How can I avoid you? When people are giving us chances to be together, again and again.
Nevertheless end, even though I hate you to be there.
Its a problem, its a problem.
Your decision/lies always change. Are you still a human?!?!
Are you still my friend?!?! Are you still the old you?!?! I'm going bonkers..
@ 3:17 PM
An old picture of me, I'm missing my long fringeee...
And here, I'm drinking bubble tea once again, NOW :D
Oh well, I'm kidding. I just drank finished, not drinking anymore.
But but but, I still drink bubble tea everyday =.= 1 and the half cup somemore for today.
Yesterday 2 cup, hope I won't drink tomorrow.
And everyday's the same thing, strawberry red tea, I like the strawberry, damn sweet. ^^
So addicted to it, like some people take drug, smokes or whatsoever it can be.
It takes time to drink lesser, and I'll try. Hehehe.
Talking about school, times passes really fast.
Tomorrow's my first paper, which's ENGLISH.
Not feeling any nervous, but feel so disappointed in myself.
After doing my math test today, I realised I've really slacken alot compared to last year.
Now, its so so so last minute to buck up, which's a thing I shouldn't do.
But better than nothing right? Thus, I going to study later..
But.. I think my math test confirm will get 0.
I made so many mistakes, and when teacher stares at my paper, I nearly broke into tears.
I don't know what has becoming over me just now, but luckily I hold back my tears.
If not, I'll be in a shame. Stress or irritated? I'm unsure, but 1 of them I guessed.
Should be irritated cause I don't know how to do, my mind was full of confusion while I was doing the math test.
I seldom pay attentive in math lesson, it depends on my mood.
All I know is just to get hyper active and have fun! BUTbutbut, that's my personality. :) Not acting.
Thus that's how a person like me end up like this. But I'm lucky to have hopes which's I can pass either math or english, which I can pass english.
I hopes to get A for english, get A for science, computer and chinese again. C for math.
And luckily yesterday english test not counted, as the whole class failed, not include me cause I didn't attend school yesterday, LOLAHLOL.
So today did a new set of english test, as Mr chis said not counted.. So ya, heard from peers today's paper is better than yesterday. COOLLL for me xD but not for those who attended school yesterday.
HAA, a surprised I got myself full marks for chinese. And I'm kind of happy. Heh.
Best of luck to me for tomorrow english, GOSH.
Woooohoooo. Tomorrow after english paper, will be eating curry rice with peers, after that go geylang and maybe watch movie. Heeheehee.
Posting pictures tomorrow, stay tuned guys.
And once again, good luck to people who are having exams tomorrow! ^.^
And here, I'm drinking bubble tea once again, NOW :D
Oh well, I'm kidding. I just drank finished, not drinking anymore.
But but but, I still drink bubble tea everyday =.= 1 and the half cup somemore for today.
Yesterday 2 cup, hope I won't drink tomorrow.
And everyday's the same thing, strawberry red tea, I like the strawberry, damn sweet. ^^
So addicted to it, like some people take drug, smokes or whatsoever it can be.
It takes time to drink lesser, and I'll try. Hehehe.
Talking about school, times passes really fast.
Tomorrow's my first paper, which's ENGLISH.
Not feeling any nervous, but feel so disappointed in myself.
After doing my math test today, I realised I've really slacken alot compared to last year.
Now, its so so so last minute to buck up, which's a thing I shouldn't do.
But better than nothing right? Thus, I going to study later..
But.. I think my math test confirm will get 0.
I made so many mistakes, and when teacher stares at my paper, I nearly broke into tears.
I don't know what has becoming over me just now, but luckily I hold back my tears.
If not, I'll be in a shame. Stress or irritated? I'm unsure, but 1 of them I guessed.
Should be irritated cause I don't know how to do, my mind was full of confusion while I was doing the math test.
I seldom pay attentive in math lesson, it depends on my mood.
All I know is just to get hyper active and have fun! BUTbutbut, that's my personality. :) Not acting.
Thus that's how a person like me end up like this. But I'm lucky to have hopes which's I can pass either math or english, which I can pass english.
I hopes to get A for english, get A for science, computer and chinese again. C for math.
And luckily yesterday english test not counted, as the whole class failed, not include me cause I didn't attend school yesterday, LOLAHLOL.
So today did a new set of english test, as Mr chis said not counted.. So ya, heard from peers today's paper is better than yesterday. COOLLL for me xD but not for those who attended school yesterday.
HAA, a surprised I got myself full marks for chinese. And I'm kind of happy. Heh.
Best of luck to me for tomorrow english, GOSH.
Woooohoooo. Tomorrow after english paper, will be eating curry rice with peers, after that go geylang and maybe watch movie. Heeheehee.
Posting pictures tomorrow, stay tuned guys.
And once again, good luck to people who are having exams tomorrow! ^.^
DAMN , COMPUTER IS LAGGING AWAY AGAIN AND IS AUTO-SHUTTING AGAIN AND AGAIN .
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 @ 2:10 PM
Damn it. Am so blaming myself now.
Am really at fault now, but guessed it ain't gonna help even though I realised I'm at fault.
Am really at fault now, but guessed it ain't gonna help even though I realised I'm at fault.
I hate myself for being so lazyyy.
Still, I don't care everything and just prepare to get a hell scolding by anybody.
Mum and Dad reprimanded me, is for my own good.
But I don't wish to hear any of it.
But I don't wish to hear any of it.
I just know I'm tired of everything, and I got to buck up still for my pride.
Hope there's a chance for re-test and going to really learn math tomorrow.
I know I'm in the wrong now.. I'm a loser.
I don't wish to talk. But I wish to blames;
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 @ 6:24 PM
MUM'S MAD , FUCK . GRR ! FRUSTRATED !
I realised, I've been drinking bubble tea almost everyday.
Yesterday I avoided drinking cause Mum doesn't allows.
Yesterday I avoided drinking cause Mum doesn't allows.
But today I felt like drinking so much, luckily cause I'm lazy and I decide to stay away from it.
As you know, drinking bubble tea's pearls is harmful when you drink ALMOST EVERYDAY, LOLAHLOL.
As you know, drinking bubble tea's pearls is harmful when you drink ALMOST EVERYDAY, LOLAHLOL.
I was so bored that I went through Edison's scandal youtube.
Didn't know he know how to speak english and chinese, that's COOL.
Alright, no comments for his scandal. But forgotten a special website that I wanted to show to some of 'my friends'.
Oh well, forget it. Never mind already. (: Hahaha.
Oh well, forget it. Never mind already. (: Hahaha.
By the way, I've cleared detention today. =D So happy happy.
Cause Dm is nice to me, LOL. And she's that nice, and oh, god bless her cough recover soon.
As she has been coughing recently. =)
Forgot to mention, I hate people who act feigne that they don't know 'who i am'.
When they did things to get near me and try to know me, which I don't want to remember. Such a hypocrite. (him and her)
Still act 'you know her', another one still act 'oh, idk'.
Please, you know me I also don't know you ok =.=
This's so fucked up and irritating. Can't imagine got these kind of people.
PEACE!* ^.^
Monday, September 22, 2008 @ 8:30 PM
I miss the past memories...
I miss the past spent with some of my girlfriends.
Went through some of my blog entries for 08/07, saw some beautiful memories I wrote + pictures.
You all're never forgotten..
看到liyin的照片，就想到TEMPURA! 哈哈哈哈。辣辣的，真好吃。可惜，没有买了。
I miss the past spent with some of my girlfriends.
Went through some of my blog entries for 08/07, saw some beautiful memories I wrote + pictures.
You all're never forgotten..
看到liyin的照片，就想到TEMPURA! 哈哈哈哈。辣辣的，真好吃。可惜，没有买了。
Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 9:33 PM
Its getting creepy, creepy it is...
REALISE SOMETHING, and THINK someone's a SLUT.
But I don't know the FACT, so its better to shut up yea.
By the appearance, she looks like a SLUT. That's better.(:
Ok, why am I talking about a stranger? Siao.
I'm getting so hopeless and unworried.
EOY's just coming in 4 days, yet I'm still slacking away.
Seriously, don't know how to start,where to start and when to start revising my mathematics.
I sounds so hopeless, damn it.
I this time, for sure, CONFIRM WILL AND MUST STUDY TOMORROW. ZZ.
Last minute revising sounds like a F A I L U R E. But whatever. At least I'm going to revise.
I was so fucking fucked fucked fucked up with Brother in the morning.
How the hell did he got so drunkard and left MY BICYCLE at the coffe shop again?
Its so fucked fucked fucked fucked up. I LENT HIM MY BICYCLE, he never took good care of it.
Instead he caused me to be late for school. ARGH!! I hate to see my dm every now and then and stay back for whatever reflection. IT'S NO USE.
But its their only method of punishing us? LOL. And whatever CWO, DETENTION, I DON'T KNOW WHATEVER.
IT JUST SUCKS BIG TIME WASTING MY TIME AWAY IN SCHOOL.
WORST STILL, not even after EOY MY GOD.
I wouldn't want to stay in school after EOY just for detention. OH GOSH.
Okay, whatever whatever. Hope I won't kena it.
Oh ya, just a reminder to all..
HI friends, the following items have been recalled due 2 china's milk situation.
This is real. M&M's, snickers, mento's, yoghurt bottle, dove chocolate, orea wafer sticks, monmilk, dutchlady sterilised milk, wall's natural mango, mini poppers ice cream, magnum ice cream, moo sandwich ice cream, mini cornetto and youcan ice cream. We've been asked by AVA 2 remove them for our stores. If you have any of these items in your house, don't eat them.
REALISE SOMETHING, and THINK someone's a SLUT.
But I don't know the FACT, so its better to shut up yea.
By the appearance, she looks like a SLUT. That's better.(:
Ok, why am I talking about a stranger? Siao.
I'm getting so hopeless and unworried.
EOY's just coming in 4 days, yet I'm still slacking away.
Seriously, don't know how to start,where to start and when to start revising my mathematics.
I sounds so hopeless, damn it.
I this time, for sure, CONFIRM WILL AND MUST STUDY TOMORROW. ZZ.
Last minute revising sounds like a F A I L U R E. But whatever. At least I'm going to revise.
I was so fucking fucked fucked fucked up with Brother in the morning.
How the hell did he got so drunkard and left MY BICYCLE at the coffe shop again?
Its so fucked fucked fucked fucked up. I LENT HIM MY BICYCLE, he never took good care of it.
Instead he caused me to be late for school. ARGH!! I hate to see my dm every now and then and stay back for whatever reflection. IT'S NO USE.
But its their only method of punishing us? LOL. And whatever CWO, DETENTION, I DON'T KNOW WHATEVER.
IT JUST SUCKS BIG TIME WASTING MY TIME AWAY IN SCHOOL.
WORST STILL, not even after EOY MY GOD.
I wouldn't want to stay in school after EOY just for detention. OH GOSH.
Okay, whatever whatever. Hope I won't kena it.
Oh ya, just a reminder to all..
HI friends, the following items have been recalled due 2 china's milk situation.
This is real. M&M's, snickers, mento's, yoghurt bottle, dove chocolate, orea wafer sticks, monmilk, dutchlady sterilised milk, wall's natural mango, mini poppers ice cream, magnum ice cream, moo sandwich ice cream, mini cornetto and youcan ice cream. We've been asked by AVA 2 remove them for our stores. If you have any of these items in your house, don't eat them.
AND I REALISED I SENT LIKE 212 messages to all just for this because I CARE, LOL.
But wth, I exceed 500 messages, which I need to pay the 100plus extra messages I sent.
Never mind, at least I got to chat with Mr Issac. Its worth it. I'm so missing him, I bet my whole class do.
The best teacher, the best joker, understanding, reasonable, caring and whatever good things you all can think of.
The best teacher, the best joker, understanding, reasonable, caring and whatever good things you all can think of.
He's just that great, to mention.
He asked if our new english teacher's good.
I said he's good, I can't possibly say 'not bad'.
He asked if our new english teacher's good.
I said he's good, I can't possibly say 'not bad'.
Its like not even up till our standard if I say 'not bad', hahaha.
I'm so glad that he'll be coming back to visit us, I hope soon.
At least he still can visit us, what about my Grandpa...
Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ 9:57 PM
Life's indeed like a drama.
I got to be realistic, I got to wake up.
But as always, I feel so reluctant about it.
I feel so unfair. Why doesn't happiness come into my way?
I feel so unfair. Why doesn't happiness come into my way?
Just now, Grandma and Mum quarrelled furiously.
I was so irritated by them, felt like getting out of their sight.
I was so irritated by them, felt like getting out of their sight.
I hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it.
Plus, I was always there whenever they quarrelled. Its so torturing.
Damn it. I hate this kind of life. -cries
better off dead-
Friday, September 19, 2008 @ 2:49 PM
Seriously, never touch my book for the past 3 months.
Random pictures. (:
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Not even until today. =/ Perhaps, later I'll try to revise -.- Maybe...
I just pray hard for my math to get at least B and I'll be satisfy. If not C also can.
I HOPE MY CPA, SCIENCE AND CHINESE CAN GET A ONCE AGAIN.
I nearly got 4 As for mid-year exam lor. But I still failed.
As I got a U for my math. This shows that I NEVER STUDY AT ALL! LOLAHLOL.
I never lift my finger to touch my books @ home, never listen at class most of the time.
I WISH, I HOPE I CAN GET 4As at least, and 1 C OR B.
All right, stop I WISH I HOPE LIAO.
Now, for now, I really hope Grandma can walk on her own, at least with the walking stick.
Now, for now, I really hope Grandma can walk on her own, at least with the walking stick.
In the past, she can at least walk with a walking stick, but now she can't even stand up on her own OFTEN.
How I pity her and start feeling heart aching for her. Not only she'll feel torture too, Mum and I'll too. And Mum sacrifise her work and sleep. But me? Nothing. What else can I DO?
She can actually walk with the walking stick, but because she've a slim leg and fat upper body. Plus she've fallen down several times.
Its dangerous and for her own safety, its still better not to stand up.
Its dangerous and for her own safety, its still better not to stand up.
I miss her walking on her own with that walking stick.
But whenever she stand up, I feels that my heart bumps faster and irregularly at the same time.
Sort of nervous too? Ｕｈ－ｏｈ．As,,, she can fall anytime, anywhere.
Poor of Mum, need to take care of Grandma 24/7.
GOD BLESS.
Though Grandma can't do any surgery as she's old and doctor scared she can't take it during the operation.
Thus she've no choice but to sit in wheelchair, still. Sigh ah sigh.
Thus she've no choice but to sit in wheelchair, still. Sigh ah sigh.
Nearly teared, but I didn't.
Doesn't mean I never teared, that means I don't care.
Perhaps just that it's been long since I last saw Liyin.
So there isn't really any feelings anymore.
And we're not close anymore, and we've not been contacting.
Not like last time, she always shower me with love and concern during primary school days by sms.
Not like last time, she always shower me with love and concern during primary school days by sms.
But things still change once all of us were separated.
However, she's busy with her studies and boyfriend?
I can't possibly interrupt. Suddenly she mentioned us* (in her blog)
I don't know how to say, but WE know WE've drifted so long ago.
And I think I did make an effort to not let our r/s drift, but it takes two hands to clap.
I can't possibly interrupt. Suddenly she mentioned us* (in her blog)
I don't know how to say, but WE know WE've drifted so long ago.
And I think I did make an effort to not let our r/s drift, but it takes two hands to clap.
FULL STOP. Perhaps it'll end this way.
I miss and yet not and I guessed it'll never be the same.
(YES, you've neglected me. You know it yourself. I don't know what others think, but you've definitely neglected me.)
I MISS SHARON. XD
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Thursday, September 18, 2008 @ 2:44 PM
I, Ong Jiale start to ride bicycle again.
But guess it'll not last, hahahaha.
But guess it'll not last, hahahaha.
So many people disapprove me of riding bicycle again=/
They said its dangerous and so on.. My brother even warned me 'be careful you die'.
OMG...=/ Think of it, its sort of scary to ride beside the road with so many cars almost everyday.
But, I got to save money!
Argh! I can't believe I'm stress over EOY.
Not really call stress, just scared?
Count down 8 more days to EOY, god bless.
Not really call stress, just scared?
Count down 8 more days to EOY, god bless.
By the way, I nearly got car accident like so many times.
NO JOKE, DAMN SCARY LAH, but I don't feel like giving up riding bicycle.
I WANT TO SAVE MONEY. BUT PEOPLE SURE ASK LIFE OR MONEY IMPORTANT RIGHT?! i know, i know..
I WANT TO SAVE MONEY. BUT PEOPLE SURE ASK LIFE OR MONEY IMPORTANT RIGHT?! i know, i know..
I can't imagine if I die on the spot of the road with that shocked look with bloods all over my face*
Ok, but.. Another thing irritates me, whenever I ride bicycle to school or home, "my" schoolmates'll look at me with that kind of 'stare' and don't know mumble what?
This's irritating, ok, I'll not care what others say.
This's irritating, ok, I'll not care what others say.
Its their fucking mouth, their fucking business. I'll bear that in mind =)
Another more more more fucking irritating thing, MY LEFT BICYCLE BRAKE CAN'T WORK.
Don't know which IDIOT go and steal it or something? HAND ITCHY LAH OF COURSE!*
But sometimes I got to left my bicycle in school, you see. That's why leads to my brake spoilt.
Don't know which IDIOT go and steal it or something? HAND ITCHY LAH OF COURSE!*
But sometimes I got to left my bicycle in school, you see. That's why leads to my brake spoilt.
Alright alright , I'll try not to leave my bicycle in school the next time . Grr .
Oh, and I realised my sit's high, luckily Dad know how to fix that one -.- Hahaha.
OH YA, I left my bicycle in school yesterday and YOU KNOW WHAT? -.-
OH YA, I left my bicycle in school yesterday and YOU KNOW WHAT? -.-
My bicycle changed position, WHICH'S SO IMPOSSIBLE.
I clearly remembered I locked my bicycle near Mr Majid's bicycle, but it switched to the end.
So I wondered, its either people got my lock, if not its I never locked properly, and thus some kind soul helped me locked at the end.
But who's so kind and not to steal my bicycle when its not locked? WEIRD*
OK , problem solved . God bless I'll not kena car accident ok .
I LOVE I LOVE TO RUN. I'M M M FAT. MY FACE MY FACE IS RED. LOLAHLOL.
IT RHYMES , but I got 1 'poem' rhymes more.
By my beloved 'dm' . "I got cheebye, you got cheebye.
Your mother got cheebye, you come out from your mother's cheebye.
That means you scold your mother cheebye."
LOLAHLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! =D
LOLAHLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! =D
SORRY TO RANT, BUT I GOT TO RANT-
Sunday, September 14, 2008 @ 6:17 PM
That day when I went out with Sis. Thanks Sis for the so many presents! ^.^ I LOVE HER.
I don't know what has becoming over me.
But I think I ask for either acting or romance.
If not I'm just too into that show and got too envy.
If not, I'm too emotional. There's alot of possibility.
I guessed its just temporary, it'll be over soon.
And I don't know why did I cried like a fool silently.
LOLAHLOL. Hope friends can make my life occupied.
Or study? I HOPE. If not, Grandma and family. :)
Cried so hard today, again and again. Really am too into that show, can't afford to miss.
Cried so hard today, again and again. Really am too into that show, can't afford to miss.
FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. Can't bring myself to stop.
Not sure what's wrong, but guessed indescribable feelings.
Not sure what's wrong, but guessed indescribable feelings.
Am alright now, doesn't cry anymore, but can't predict tomorrow.
I don't want a bf, I don't WANT. So hating it now cause of some personal matters. ARGH.
By the way, today celebrated of Lantern festival was quite alright.
I sort of enjoyed, Shuyuan, Shiela, Sixian, Weiting and Lily was there.
And I did succesfully forgotten everything and not taking it to heart.
But my mind was still somewhere else.
Sharon, Liyin, Suvd, Racy and Shimin can't make it.
Ops, nearly forgotten Racy again, so add up the name=/
Just enjoy the pictures bah. (:
COMPUTER AUTO SHUT AGAIN FOR SO MANY TIMES!
ARGH! GOING TO SPOIL AGAIN? ZZ AH ZZ.
REFORMAT NEVER STOPS! ZZ.
As you can see, the smoke goes up to the light, and it looks like MOON! LOL.
(I SAW THE ROUND MOON WITH SHIELA AND SHUYUAN, BUT A PITY CAN'T TAKE MOON PICTURE BY RUMOUS=/) FOR SAFETY.
The sisters. :)
Me with my NEW NAME JOY. Hahaha.
S for Shiela. S(:
NGU for Shuyuan. NGU!
The don't know how many packets of candle we bought, but it's not enough still...
Shiela with the firework. =D
Shiela and I.
I feel so lost , feel so tired , feel so lifeless , full of envy for that show*
I sort of enjoyed, Shuyuan, Shiela, Sixian, Weiting and Lily was there.
And I did succesfully forgotten everything and not taking it to heart.
But my mind was still somewhere else.
Sharon, Liyin, Suvd, Racy and Shimin can't make it.
Ops, nearly forgotten Racy again, so add up the name=/
Just enjoy the pictures bah. (:
COMPUTER AUTO SHUT AGAIN FOR SO MANY TIMES!
ARGH! GOING TO SPOIL AGAIN? ZZ AH ZZ.
REFORMAT NEVER STOPS! ZZ.
As you can see, the smoke goes up to the light, and it looks like MOON! LOL.
(I SAW THE ROUND MOON WITH SHIELA AND SHUYUAN, BUT A PITY CAN'T TAKE MOON PICTURE BY RUMOUS=/) FOR SAFETY.
The sisters. :)
Me with my NEW NAME JOY. Hahaha.
S for Shiela. S(:
NGU for Shuyuan. NGU!
The don't know how many packets of candle we bought, but it's not enough still...
Shiela with the firework. =D
Shiela and I.
I feel so lost , feel so tired , feel so lifeless , full of envy for that show*
