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Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 2:42 AM

Since it has been quite a long time since I last blogged, I really don't know how to start.
Guess I should blog frequently from now onwards, hope I'll have something to say everyday.
I shall put up tagboard even if there's not much people tagging, doesn't matter.
Thinking of how Huimin used to tell me how much she likes to read my blog makes me happy :)
In the past, I used to have a lot of words to type. Today I've many random things I would like to blog.
Few days ago, randomly I thought to myself 'A small lizard will appear'.
And when I was going to unlock my bicycle, I saw a small lizard near me, I hurried up ran while pushing my bicycle and immediately sat on the bicycle's seat.
All pure coincidence...
Then randomly I thought to myself 'Later faeces will drop in front of me or something'.
I'm weird. Having these weird thoughts. Luckily this 'faeces' thing didn't happened.
1 more day there will be Oral exam. Not sure if it's mid-year or prelim.
I know I won't be doing well, will just give in my best shot.
What matters now is Grandma will be moving back to my house very soon!!! ^-^
I'll be able to see Grandma everyday when I wake up and I can accompany her, so she won't feel lonely or bored anymore.
Was really quite upset but controlled myself not to tear for I didn't have the chance to see Linda Chung at a Starhub event.
It's just silly but I really didn't expect Linda Chung will come to Singapore one fine day which was on the Friday, 28 May.
If there's next time, hope I'll be one of the lucky ones or if need to use money to get her ticket, must depends how much it is.
It's normal to like celebrity as some of my friends said 'You're mad'.
Because they don't admire Linda Chung, they can't feel how much I like her.
I remembered how I used to like Wuzhun, I teared as I missed seeing him in real life.
Thinking back, I was really silly. Hahaha.
Coincidentally, people over the Internet are comparing Linda Chung and Wuzhun similarities.
Seriously, I don't think there's any similarities. Perhaps to some others there is.
At least there is videos of Linda Chung at the Starhub event.
She also knows that people says she looks like Wuzhun, she said that Wuzhun is handsome.
Which I don't really think so anymore. Well, my admire for Male celebrities doesn't last long.
Anyway, on the Friday, which was 2 days ago, I was thinking about some disappointing friends.
Now, right now, I feel that I can't expect much from them.
And it's true how when you expect something, it just doesn't go your way.
When Huimin passed away, I thought family could help, but they couldn't.
I thought friends couldn't, but they can. Especially some people who really helped me a lot.
In a blink of an eye, everything changes in a person, I mean some things which I feel like typing but I don't think it's convenient to type here.
Many people only realise must treasure people around us now before it's too late.
This's what they say, but who really actually treasure people around them?
Alright, it seems like I still bother over those disappointing friends.
Damn, I really shouldn't expect much from them. Not any one in my clique. They are great.
My Sis thinks that I'm very silly/boliao as I told her I want to keep in contact with my friends till we reach a very old age/forever.
Seriously, any one of you out there who are my friends, I sincerely hope I can last with you all.
But if you don't have the heart to, there's nothing I can do.
I can't keep pestering you right? Even though some of my friends have promised me that they will keep in contact with me but promises can be broken.
So I won't expect much. Of course, I wish they will keep their promise.
There's many things I still want to say, I guess.
My brain isn't really working now. As in, I just easily forget things and it's very easily.
What I said the day before, I can just totally forget every single thing.
Many things I can't remember. No idea why.

Time for me to get myself a cold cup of water. Kind of thirsty!

Monday, May 3, 2010 @ 10:32 PM

25 november 1994 - 30 April 2010

All the happy moments with Huimin.

I hope she is happy somewhere.. Like what Weikat said, meeting great people.

Hope she is doing fine..

It's shocking, it's unbelievable, it feels unreal, it sucks, it feels like a dream.

My brain feels really empty, seriously.
I don't know who is really here, who is really there.

It still strike me hard, it's a big bad news for me.

I sucks, I haven't get over it, I still can't get over it, I don't know how long it'll take. I really don't know.

3 more days there's math exam, yet I haven't started anything. I can't study. I still can't.
I feel mentally exhausted, mentally stressed. I regretted not asking Huimin out often.

I regretted not going for her cooking course at some place. I regretted many things.

I can't remember for now, but the past can't rewind.

Whatever I see, I hear is the fact, nobody can change.

How much I was hoping for something, I told Shiela 'Maybe later she will suddenly just wake up like how your Granny's friend's friend did'.

I had many unpleasant memories with Huimin, I also had many happy memories with her.

Not to mention the unpleasant memories, I believe each and everyone have unpleasant memories with each other as long as it ends up good and we forgive and try to forget.
It's also not a problem, just that there'll be memories and scars there.

I'm glad for the video taken, the special memories like in Malacca. Many else more.

We nearly met up, we nearly met, but we didn't. It has been like half a year or more than that I last saw you. Shit it.

You had something for me, YET I can't have it, I can't have the last things you want to give me.

Like what I read from Xinyi's blog, I've many doubts, many questions about the real fact.

But it seems like I'll never know, even if I know, there's nothing I can do, is there?

I've heard many rumours, but rumours cannot be trusted. Nobody should trust rumours.

Many people said Huimin wouldn't want to see me and some of us like this, but I couldn't help it.
I can't bring myself to study, also, Jason has said she wouldn't want me to do badly for my MYE because of her.

But.. I just can't do it. I can't get over it. I CAN'T. I sucks.

Why must this happen to us at this time? Why must this even happened?

Is it really pretestined? WHY! Why torture her parents, her sibling, her cousins, her relatives, her friends, we?

She's still so young, she's still 15. Damn.

I seriously want to see you in person, the real human but I won't have the chance anymore. No more.

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All the comments left by Huimin to me.......... friendster.

♥ HuiMinAug 1 2007, 12:57 PM
ooh ok...hahas lols..take care

♥ HuiMinAug 3 2007, 07:27 AM
orrhh....ok..hahahs..take care

♥ HuiMinMar 28 2008, 08:57 AM
hahahhsu fat fat piggy !!! :)lolstakkairesc ya in sch

JialeMay 30 2008, 10:10 AM
kind of you to view me without leaving comment worsxzs.HAHA. xiao mango? -.-anyway, how come change number, again?

♥ HuiMinMay 2 2008, 02:20 PM
VIEWED N COMMENT-EDgud luck for ur exam luh .all e best to u .study hard n dun get too stress . hehes ^^takkaires( xiao mango )

JialeMay 3 2008, 10:12 AM
oh, thanks darling.you too. take care.:)

♥ HuiMin HuiMin">June 3 2008, 04:20 PM
hhahahahhs .i was quite bored so i viewed ur profile becox i wanna view ur blog .but in e end u didn't wrote up ur blog address .MAYB ur blog TOO NICE TO WRITE LE !!!!WAHAHAHAHHAAHAHS .hhahaahahaahhas .hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ,yupps yupps , xiao mango roxs !!!!!lols . na la ! ERM , some of my frenx called me mango .so i decided to change it to xiao mango . ROFL .=.= hohohos . yuppsa . i lost my ph again .i left it at e toilet again . hehehehs careless de me !!takkaries .

JialeJun 4 2008, 06:36 AM
haha.your explanation's indeed long.i got put my blog url larh,you never take a look carefully i suppose?

♥ HuiMinJun 6 2008, 04:41 PM
hhahahahahs . yupps yupps sowie . i didn't saw it wos .now i SAW it ler !!huh ?????wat thing ?? u suppose ??

♥ HuiMinJun 6 2008, 05:48 PM
hhahahahahhas .yupppps .hmmmmmmm. i not sure i going wif my fren anot wos .huh ??? " FUCKER " ??? HU IS E FUCKER ???takkaries

JialeJun 7 2008, 03:22 PM
ivan's the FUCKER.walao, you good hor.go out with xinyi never inform me.sad larh.):anyway, its bbq or chalet? zz.

JialeJun 6 2008, 05:32 PM
good you saw it then (:so did you visit my blog?anyway, so delighted to see you just now.i want to go weikiat's bbq with you lorh.but you with your friends,so i guess i'm not going since maybe shuyuan can't make it?and i don't wish to see fucker. haha.

♥ HuiMinJun 8 2008, 05:08 PM
hahhahs .ps narhs .u nv ask me .hmmmmmtakkaries

♥ HuiMinAug 3 2008, 03:34 PM
chocolate oreo milk tea . ROX !!!!

Jiale">JialeAug 5 2008, 04:44 PM
yeah, WE DO ROCKS. ! xDDbut... think of a nicer name for weikiat lah -.-"sounds weird, yours abit too.my name the best, CHOCOLATE ROCKS LAH.nono , should be JIALE ROCKS LAH . :)

♥ HuiMinAug 6 2008, 03:17 PM
hmmmmm .hahasa . orh okies .den wat should we call him luh .let me thk !!!!=D .nonono . is mango n huimin rox .hhehestakkaries , wif loves ♥

♥ HuiMinAug 11 2008, 06:20 AM
yeyeyeyeyes .but a little catch no baLL .hahhahas . yupps . huimin rox !!!!!!!!!!hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm , i thk hao liao den tell u ok .takkaries . mushroom

JialeAug 11 2008, 05:17 AM
NO LOR.you said chocolate, oreo, milk tea rocks.where got mango, huimin rocks? where got?!?!I position the first so i rocks more than you and weikiat dude. like duh=Dheh, so've you think what to call weikiat? LOL.love you too, horny b!tch.

♥ HuiMinAug 13 2008, 07:11 AM
ok ok !!!!hahahs . mushroom head .hehehs . wat naughty 38??ttakkries

♥ HuiMinAug 13 2008, 01:44 PM
hmmmmmm , hahas . it's u lorr .mushroom head . dosen't sound cute . it's sound funny . wakakaks . ermm . dunno leh . i will change it de luh . lols . orh okies . c ya in sch . + lazy pig !!

JialeAug 13 2008, 09:00 AM
finally OK. hahaha.what mushroom head? where got? WHO?!?! erm , you ?:)HAHA, must be you. mushroom head sounds cute -.-"LOL LA, you 38 mushroom head lo.why still never change your shoutout?. didn't leave you alone at all and you seems to be happy with . what. haha.you should get me? LAUGHS.don't always say take care lah.XDdon't need for that. lame you. hoho.

JialeAug 14 2008, 08:26 AM
you said mushroom sounds funny not cute.then you still call me mushroom -.-"DAMN YOU UH, 38.I where got lazy.. 'someone' seems to be more lazy-er than me 'hor'?:)

My replied: I mean my name position the first, as you mentioned.so i rocks more.:)hahahaha. what mushroom uh? naughty 38.you horny bitch who catch a little balls-.-"LOLLOL,!

♥ HuiMinAug 15 2008, 03:25 PM
wakakkakas . happy birthday mushroom head !!!!have fun n wish ur dream cum true .wat 38 . u den 38 mushroom . ewwww !!!! where got . u more lazy hao bu hao .

JialeAug 15 2008, 04:32 PM what mushroom, again?!!thanks for the wishes btw, horny!=)eh, i where got lazy?it seems that 'someone' loves to sleep more than me, always sleepy when i see you in school and loves to pon school more than me 'hor'.jiale's the guai-est lah, always so guai hor:D

♥ HuiMinAug 16 2008, 04:56 PM
yea yea !!mushroom again . bleah !!! no lorr . u more lazy . u skip sch more den me hor . but dun count last year de la . i neo last year i pon class more den u . but now dun have le hor . wakakakkas . lazy de jiale

JialeAug 17 2008, 08:23 AM confirm or not.i don't think i pon school more than you eh.should be either equal equal or you more lah.

♥ HuiMinAug 26 2008, 03:00 PM
loves to eat chocolate chocolate . when u going to sch .lalalalas .HAHAHAHAH . cya cya

♥ HuiMinAug 27 2008, 03:08 PM
nonono . i can eat u yea . yummy yummy !!!

JialeAug 27 2008, 11:23 AM
LOL LOL. no no.you can't eat me darling.(:

JialeAug 28 2008, 10:01 AM
YOU PERVVVV.! haha.well, you still bear grudges towards your cat arh.

♥ HuiMinSep 1 2008, 05:05 PM
wakakas . i treat my cat damn gd de .

JialeSep 2 2008, 05:32 AM
FOR SURE OR NOT.perhaps you torture him without us knowing.ONLY GOD AND HELL WHO KNOWS. hahaha.

JialeSep 3 2008, 06:00 PM
HELLO BESTIE(:you know what or not!i miss you so so so so so much.from last thursday you didn't attend school...till now, it's been 7 days since i last saw you, that means 1 week leh. i can only see you after 11 days man, make sure you attend school ah sayang. heh.see ya when school reopen yo. xD

♥ HuiMinSep 4 2008, 08:06 AM
reali narhs .hahahs . i will treat my cat damn gud . lols . orh okeis . huh ??? got so long meh . i didn't neo it . okok , i will go de narhs . takkaries

JialeSep 4 2008, 01:20 PM i so wuxim write comment for you.but you never say 'i miss you too'.hahahaha. i yesterday miss you, now don't already.wakakaka, my mood're like the weather. bobian.:)ok, craps. get to the point, you got touch your books or not?and did you left any books in the classroom?I BET YOU DID RIGHT! HOLY SHIT! what if the cleaner auntie or abraham throw away, CONFIRM PLUS CHOP DE LAHHH.

JialeOct 7 2008, 08:49 AM darling darling.can't wait to go ice skating with you worsxz. ^^

♥ HuiMinOct 10 2008, 02:00 P
M baby , help my check ice skating is about how much can ?c ya

JialeOct 12 2008, 05:54 AM
your primary photo look retarded worsxzs! xD-laughs, i think if 4 people go in a group cheaper.4 people $60 for 2 hours. no charge for overtime and no charge for skates rental.viewer count as per individual.for student, (holding student pass)$11.80 for 2 hours.overtime charge, $4.30 per hour.skates rental, $3.30 per pair.viewer, $3.30 entry.if we count by individual, we need around..$22.70but.. for 4 person entry.only @ 60 (:its cheap.btw, we need to bring glove on our own.if not, buy from there around $2.and wear jeans there. noted?

♥ HuiMinOct 12 2008, 03:49 PM
YEA . RETARDED . hmmmm , alright !!so about how much i needed to bring luh. u set e date how ma ???c ya

JialeOct 12 2008, 06:26 PM
hmm, i don't know if i can set the date now leh.cause.. weikiat, suyin and shiela still haven't confirm if they going.i think you needa bring around $30?should be more than enough. :)

♥ HuiMinOct 14 2008, 03:36 AM
hahahhahas . orh okies . hmmmmmm , den u go ask them 1st norh . but wei kiat free to go de ma ???if he cannot go den ask xinyi go hao bu hao ????

JialeOct 14 2008, 08:26 AM
yah, okay with it.haa! weikiat? always like that, last minute don't want derh.suyin and shiela still not confirm.but you need to give me sometime to save money my dear (:

♥ HuiMinOct 16 2008, 03:54 PM
hahahs . baby . i also nid to save money 1st .lols. he ar ?? hope he will go luh .=Dso now is shiela n su yin still not comform yet rite ??if both of them didn't go , den we call xin yi gokays ??

JialeOct 16 2008, 06:10 PM
why not around far end november we go or december? :)weikiat said he confirm going already, guess cause of the fight we'd.thus he want to prove to me he change i supposed.yep, i'm really okay with xinyi going.go ahead and call her. ^^would you mind if marlissa tag along, perhaps rini too? the more the merrier?

JialeOct 20 2008, 11:37 AM
that's great. LOL, if you want to keep something low profile, guess its quite difficult too.see your latest comment! HAHAHA.would you mind if lily and her peers tag along?-evil grins. i know i'm calling more and more people -__-

JialeOct 25 2008, 06:33 PM
OMG! i miss you man.

JialeOct 25 2008, 06:38 PM
but i find you funny. your birthday coming.your birthday coming! uh oh. (like as if uh)

♥ HuiMinOct 26 2008, 03:28 AM
lols. u become damn hyper narhs .hahhahs , takkaries

♥ HuiMinOct 27 2008, 01:50 PM
o.O ya . baby . wat if i can't save enough fer e ice-skating how ??ask hu to loan me 1st luh ???takkaries . miss u lahh .=P

JialeOct 27 2008, 03:14 PM i also not sure leh. =/me, myself are tight in cash too -__-

JialeNov 12 2008, 08:03 AM heyo :)thanks alot for the strawberry boster! MUACKs!

♥ HuiMinNov 13 2008, 02:03 AM
hahahs , u r welcome luh

JialeDec 3 2008, 07:45 PM
I ROCK YOU, ASS!And I still rock your ass (:mwhahahahahahaha.in fact, actually, instead..i'm CHOCOLATE (:nooooo, that's not the point.you see.---------------------------THOUGH I'm terribly afraid of cats, but I want to tell you something.YOUR CAT IS SO CUTE PLEASE!Still, I don't dare to touch him :DHehehehehe. (: See you when school reopen darling.I so don't want it, fucking few more weeks to enjoy!!

♥ HuiMinDec 4 2008, 02:11 AM
hehehehsreali veri cute ar . den nex tim e i bring it to ur house luhhahahs , jkjkbut he is quite naughty de luhtouch him also cannot . onlineo how to play play play . wahahahahahahahahhsmiss u darling !! ^^

JialeDec 9 2008, 05:31 PM
muacks to you!I me myself miss you too (:Chocolate here & so you know.SEE YOU THIS WED!

♥ HuiMinJan 4 2009, 10:22 AM
darling , thx luhhelp me edit e pic .c ya in sch soon =)

JialeJan 4 2009, 02:11 PM
REAL SOON MAN, JUST TOMORROW!!haha, welcome darling!! :)

JialeJan 12 2009, 02:32 PM
NUN.edit your photo next time ok.feeling really sleepy now.cya sleepyhead. ;)

♥ HuiMinJan 15 2009, 02:06 AM
hao derhs .hao derhs .mushroom head !!!!!!takkaries

JialeJan 15 2009, 08:57 AM
OI. no more mushroom head!!i've side fringe now, no more BANGS!HAHAHAHAHA.you freaking nun. ;)so... still need me help you edit photo or xinyi helping you?

♥ HuiMinJan 15 2009, 01:35 PM
but still look lik mushroom head !!!!haaaaaaaa . mushroom head .nun good wat . can eat mushroom .hmmmm, xy will be helpin me to edit!!!thx btw

JialeJan 16 2009, 05:37 AM WHATTTTT!no lah, really meh, you anyhow.so what, I run away don't let you eat!!;P

♥ HuiMinJan 16 2009, 06:13 AM
haaaaa. mushroom run slow den nun . n i dun thk tat mushroom hav leg luh=D

JialeJan 17 2009, 02:58 AM okok la, you win ._.OMG, we're so lame.

♥ HuiMinJan 19 2009, 03:31 AM ya lorr !!we so childish .

JialeJan 19 2009, 07:23 AM & so horny!!;)

♥ HuiMinAug 13 2007, 08:36 AM
oorhhh..okie...tc

♥ HuiMinAug 21 2007, 02:50 AM
hahas..very sianx sia..alway go..i really dun wan to see e stupid D-M...take care

♥ HuiMinOct 7 2007, 07:39 AM
All the best fer EOY! :D

♥ HuiMin Nov 5 2007, 03:49 AM
GOT MEH!!!DUN HAV LA...HAHAS..HOW'S UR RESULT??OK???TAKE CARE N MISSES...

♥ HuiMinNov 6 2007, 02:32 AM my com can use liao ma!!hehes...take care

♥ HuiMinNov 7 2007, 02:47 AM u write mcg to my frienster lorr ???or u add me in msn..i lazy to add leh!!take care

♥ HuiMinDec 15 2007, 09:43 AM misses too!!tc ^^

♥ HuiMinMay 27 2009, 07:59 PM i lost my ph againcontact me at 82783226 k??