When I realised that I can't compare to your friend or other friends.
When I feel envy or jealous. Was it the right feeling?I think it's just all mixed-up feelings!
It sucks that my determination NEVER last long!
All I care about is just Grandma. Yes, it's true.
I do care about my future but I'm just being emotional about my stupid choice made.
There is always mistakes and regrets in life. It just can't be avoided.
We don't know if every choice made was right or wrong. We just have to go with our feelings and instincts.
Life is short. Really short. How much 10 years can Humans have?
We must live life happily and do everything you wish to do! Don't live to regret!
Of course, you know what to do and what not to do.
I'm 16 now, turning into 40s - 50s is very fast.
In a blink of an eye, I'll be old. Of course, I wish to be healthy and able to take care of myself.
When one is old, they have to take care of themselves very well. As old folks is very weak.
It's fated that I'm born into this family and to know those friends of mine.
I've to remind myself that "No one is perfect". I shouldn't demand too much from some of my friends!
But all I ask from all my friends is just to be earnest, honest and reasonable.
Isn't it easy?Well, I understand it's hard for some people because no one is perfect.
However, I still don't understand why some people just couldn't do simple things. Argh!
Ong Jiale, take it easy!!
I shan't make myself angry over unworthy people.
Anyway, my Grandma is so adorable!!!
I know I've been saying it for umpteen times but she is improving! He he! ^-^
She is requesting to go Market almost everyday! She loves to go out!
(I mean, she always love to go Market but after her fall, she couldn't tolerate the pain in her backbone thus she don't like to go out because whenever she sit on the wheelchair, she feels pain.)
I know she still do feel pain but she don't nag anymore. She could even sit for an hour plus!
Until just now when Mum called, I told Grandma to wait for Mum.
She couldn't tolerate, as she need to pass motion. Ha ha. She showed me a shocked face.
In the end, she didn't pass motion. I asked her if she lied, she didn't answer.
I really don't know if she lied though. Doesn't matter.
I look forward to bring her to the Market tomorrow with Family! :D
Good luck to me for everything!
All I ask for is Grandma to recover. Which means that she can sit up on her own, stand up on her own, walk on her own(with walking stick or not) and for peace at home.
I can sacrifice anything but not the thing that I'm most afraid of. God knows.
(Yes, even death. If possible.)
Thank you.
