Saturday, July 18, 2009 @ 10:17 PM
I find humans very very very fragile. Some lucky ones will have healthy body till old.
But majority are not. Grandma don't really have many illness.
She just have problem with her backbone and her leg is too skinny and her upper body is fat.
I think its all the times she fell add together thats why her backbone got sth press on it?
Not very sure, don't really understand what the doctor said as she spoke broken chinese. Ha ha.
I'm very sad upon seeing her like this and its like nothing I can do.
Everything I promised I'll do but lazy this world equals BULLSHIT.
I really hate myself for always not fulfilling promises, taking success for granted.
Thanks god for helping though I never keep my promises.
Still, I'll try. I don't dare to promise anymore. I'll try after my leg recover.
Today I went to attachment, and the kind manager May asked me go home and rest.
Am grateful for that, that means I can see Grandma more.
Met friends at night, eat eat eat and here I am.
I realise one must really really try to take care of he/she body.
Don't think whatever you eat, you also will end up bad.
I know some people keep fit, always jogging, but suddenly he/she just died while jogging.
We never understand one's body, though he/she always exercise, this happened to he/she.
This is something we can never understand. But try, at least you know you tried your best to keep yourself healthy.
You might not suffer, why not try?
Perhaps Grandma have a really good life. But why not? Why not just continue give her good life?
Let her sit up soon :D I don't mind sacrifice anything but not 1 thing I really scared of, god knows it.
What I really scared is not death, make a guess.
