Have been meeting Suyin nowadays. Always meet till around 1am.
Darn it, have been sleeping everyday nearly 2am or later.
Sent Suyin to take taxi and walked home alone, scary enough.
But I was strong, HA HA HA HA HA. Saw humans around my house area, felt more relieve.
Something struck me I really must change habit to sleep early.
Good for health and skin as what I've been told, my skin getting worst, as in my acne. Argh.
I suddenly felt like closing blog as I don't like taking pictures anymore and not use to it.
No pictures, not much words for entries...
Shall end here, this's really boring and I'm sleepy! Till here.

I used to really dislike my designer teacher.
Whenever we asked questions, he gave bad response.
I thought what was wrong, what was with his attitude!
The first lesson he was quite nice.
So recently I found out what happened, I feel for him.
It hurts to lose your love one, but I hope day by day he'll heal.
Stay strong for his childrens, I know it's hard.
Thats why I always say LIFE IS REALLY SO FRAGILE.
I really don't like to be kicking alive to experience 'suan tian ku la'.
stupid translation in english: sour sweet bitter hot

Anyway, I feel that I'm so lost in touch with blog nowadays.
Had flu from tuesday morning till wednesday night.
Tuesday afternoon went to see doctor, flu and sore throat infection.
I really must get use to swallow medicine, as I don't really know how to swallow.
Nearly chocked, but I'm fine now. Thanks god.
2 days mc, so shiok, I like. But it doesn't last long.
Tomorrow attending school, no more breaks.
Because of flu, I feel like I ignored Grandma for days.
And I'm in love with soya bean drink with pearl from Mr Bean. So unlike of me.
Is it a good thing? I think so. I don't used to like soya bean drink.
FINALLY finished watching ko one and x-family, I was so sick of it, too many episodes.
I'm like so late, a 2005 show???
Still didn't get to meet Racy and Merlene!! Hope to see them soon.
Why nowadays movie so boring one!!!!!!!!!!

GRANDMA I LOVE YOU! I always support you, always . . . . . . :)

Came across many blogs complaning blogger having uploading pictures problem.
Oh damn, I guess I used up around 10 packet of tissue or more.
I kept sneezing non-stop for don't know what reason, thought its like normal morning sneeze.
Super intolerable.... argh, once again, if its for Grandma I'm ok with it.

I miss soya pearl drink and chocolate pancake!!
Can't wait for 'Where got ghost' movie on August 7!!!

Seriously friends, you all know who you are if you happened to read this post of mine.
I was feeling headache and vexed when I heard things got worst.
I know you all mean well, but I didn't want it to be like this. I believe a we.
But since you all settled it, which I'm glad, I really thanks you all for settling it.
If not I'll be having a heavy heart till tomorrow. Luckily there's a chance to hear the story today.
Very relieve. Great to have you all caring friends, but not this settling way. Very... stress.

SO, lets get back to GRANDMA :)
She was so cute... cute... cute.
She mentioned about her wallet with aunt again. (-.-)
She said when I work then support her. (I okay with it :D VERY WILLING)
She said she don't have chance celebrate her birthday as she can't sit up. (I insist can celebrate)
She kept laughing when I tried to pull her higher to let her sleep more comfortable.
Well................................................................... SHE IS SO ADORABLE.
Aww.................................................................................. I love love love her! :D :D :D
God bless.

I wanted to keep this in my heart, but typing out will make me feel better.
Like how I always try not to tear during lessons, but I just can't control.
I tried so hard not to tear today, but I just can't control, it was so embarrassing... SO DIULIAN.
I've to let out in the end. Damn. . . . . . . . .

Sharon suddenly called me and said that Suyin want to pass me something.
I thought why out of a sudden, now I know the reason why.
I'm lost for words, happy too, rest assured I like it! Thanks for the pretty yellow watch.
:) Loves.

Of course thanks to Sharon for the caring message too. <3
Same to Shiela! :D Very nice of you all...

Thanks to the designer for letting me home early,
for not forcing me to go people's park. (whatever the spelling is)

Till here, ugly face of ME so pictures not posted.

I find humans very very very fragile. Some lucky ones will have healthy body till old.
But majority are not. Grandma don't really have many illness.
She just have problem with her backbone and her leg is too skinny and her upper body is fat.
I think its all the times she fell add together thats why her backbone got sth press on it?
Not very sure, don't really understand what the doctor said as she spoke broken chinese. Ha ha.
I'm very sad upon seeing her like this and its like nothing I can do.
Everything I promised I'll do but lazy this world equals BULLSHIT.
I really hate myself for always not fulfilling promises, taking success for granted.
Thanks god for helping though I never keep my promises.
Still, I'll try. I don't dare to promise anymore. I'll try after my leg recover.
Today I went to attachment, and the kind manager May asked me go home and rest.
Am grateful for that, that means I can see Grandma more.
Met friends at night, eat eat eat and here I am.
I realise one must really really try to take care of he/she body.
Don't think whatever you eat, you also will end up bad.
I know some people keep fit, always jogging, but suddenly he/she just died while jogging.
We never understand one's body, though he/she always exercise, this happened to he/she.
This is something we can never understand. But try, at least you know you tried your best to keep yourself healthy.
You might not suffer, why not try?
Perhaps Grandma have a really good life. But why not? Why not just continue give her good life?
Let her sit up soon :D I don't mind sacrifice anything but not 1 thing I really scared of, god knows it.
What I really scared is not death, make a guess.

YES YES YES, YAY NESS!
Guess what! My Grandma is out of hospital, like finally!
I promise I'll be back after school and not going to waste any minute.
But this week will be a expectation as I'm meeting those who I didn't saw for a long time.
Like Xinyi, Racy and Merlene. Look forward to see all of you! :D :D :D
Grandma is so cute today, so cuteee :) As usual, so cute!!!
If you all read my entries, you would know I'd injured my leg.
I drag to go to the attachment but I don't like to miss lesson.
What I'm going to suggest was stay behind the kitchen and wipe plate etc.
I guess I go don't go also makes no different. Would I learn anything behind the kicthen?
Besides I can't stand for long, sometimes the scar hurts and I'm not wearing socking nor heel nor black.
If not my scar will have blood/water-ish thing coming out in chinese (nong) I mentioned before.
As what Miss Lee said, just hope the manager understand.
They don't want understand also must, in this kind of situation how to wear socking and heel right.
Seriously I preferred staying at home take care of Grandma than to go there and wait for 11pm.
Argh, I feel so unwilling to go for out of a sudden. Why? Yes it's Grandma that makes me feel like that.
):

Darn it. I from morning to night which means now keep sneezing non-stop.
What's wrong man! O: Luckily I didn't attend school, if not I think people will scare me, agree?
I hope I recover by saturday, if not hell, confirm cannot go attachment with a injured leg and sneezing.
Plus, I stretch accidentally just now and the skin was like cracked to half. Pain!
But well, I'm okay with it as long as its for Grandma.
Today heard some news from the doctor, which was like 50-50 bad & good news.

• Grandma's old for surgery
• Its quite a big surgery (so better don't take)
• Maybe she can't sit down
• Maybe she can
• Maybe she can't depends on herself to sit down
• Maybe she just can sit in her wheelchair but can't walk

Argh, why must she face this like seriously!
Everybody was saying Grandma have a good life.
I agree, cause she never work before except for 'zhong tian' in village.
Grandpa was the one who went over all sort of places to work.
What Grandma need to do was only take care and bring up my mum, aunts and uncle.
Still, I don't think she deserve this. BUT, I believe she can recover, with determination.
I hope like what Mum said, when she go home then she's more comfortable, naturally she can sit down by training and practice.
All I can only hope is Grandma jiayou and strive for the better.
I don't mind keep sneezing, just for the sake of her.
Please, God bless her.

Sad to hear this 50-50 news.
But still got hope right? At least better than none...

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me today.
HA HA HA, I kept laughing during chinese lesson and felt irritated by the gay designer.
Felt that designer so disgusting and chinese teacher temper sucks.
The gay designer saliver still split on me accidentally. Darn, *pukes*
Sometimes feel they ok leh, sometimes like wtf, can't control myself to say them sarcastically and purposely.
Recently a lot negative things happened. The thing that worries me most was what happened to Suyin.
Luckily everything is back to normal again.

Tomorrow post pictures, lazy to type more.
I dislike tuesday, 3pm finish school like wth.
YE! ;) I guess Grandma can be out of hospital already.
But,,, my Mum is taking in of her again, that means going to take care of her, help her urine and shit all these, (sorry a bit vulgar) so I'll be going home straight after school starting from next week I think.
Please understand that I need to take care of Grandma as she can't walk neither sit down.
I hope she'll have the determination to sit and walk like what happened to her years ago.
She slept before in bed for half year and stand up on herself after half year.
Practice makes perfect right? JIAYOU GRANDMA!!!!!
Remember, I always love you! :D

If you ask me, I guess I got so much to complain.
BUT YET AGAIN, if it can make Grandma gets better, of course I rather shut up.
Yesterday she vomited, (not counted today as monday) I was so worried.
Its like so worrying when I saw her like that. *relieve* As she was better today.
The troublesome thing is I still have to print out the 'N level practice papers' myself.
DM said it doesn't matter the answers is there, wth, I MIND.
It isn't any different by giving me answer sheets la, I mean.
AND now near my toes my inner skin is showing that means I can't wear socks.
If not it'll stick, as got some 'wet' thing (nong) in chinese I suppose coming out.
Most probably I'll be wearing slipper to school lor, sometimes even I walk it hurts.
If its just for myself, I'll like DARN IT, WHY SO UNLUCKY BLA BLA...
But again, I'm okay with it and no complain as long its for Grandma.
Alright, now its going to 2am. Seems like I'll be sleeping at 2plus or even 3am.
I'm fucking still not done with the N level papers, waiting for Sis.
........... 55 sheets need to be printed. LIKE WTF LOR,,,,,,,

Visited Grandma 2 times today! Aww, I damn miss her!
I wish I could stay longer. Every saturday I can only see her 1 time, for 1 hour?
Tomorrow start attachment, argh, my feet still hurts. Its like my skin was stretching.
I can only hope it gets better tomorrow. Looks like Grandma is getting better..
I hope her high blood pressure gets lower, as its really high today. *worries*
Yesterday she was keep nagging for her wallet, luckily not anymore when I visited her in the morning.
Show her the wallet and she said bring back. Weird, but its okay.
Whenever I splash water on my scars, it was like so pain, freaking.
I didn't know it was like so many marks, like slash marks. What the hell.
Alright, I shall post some photos in the plane and in China.

Name: Wang/Ong Jiale
Age: 20
Nationality: Singaporean
Zodiac: Leo

Grandma & Family is always my top priority.
basketball, badminton, pingpong, softball.
I started to read books after twilight were published.
Hate heavy metal and techno, sucks.
movies, shopping, eating, studying.
soft-hearted. easily influence. friendly if you know me well.
anti-social by the face. talkative and nonsense.
true to friends and easily trust people.
loves to laughs, love to joke.

. Grandma to sit up soon!!
. FIFTH CHINA TRIP!!!!! <3
. Trip to KOREA, HONGKONG, TAIWAN, JAPAN AND NEWYORK
. Roam around the world
. Overseas trip with best buds

. FOLDED WALLET!!
. COLLAR LONG SLEEVE SHIRT!
. LONG SLEEVE DRESS!!!!!