Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 3:25 PM
Even though I might have that little hatred for Dad. Still I know I care for him :)
Seriously speaking, soft hearted is always my bad point. I always get soft hearted easily.
Lets take today as an example. At hall, I so wanted to get a good rest but I've no idea why two men just kept disturbing me!
1 of the guys called me 'girl' at first, I ignored. Then again, he put his leg and hit my buttock.
Does he even know that? *angry* I didn't totally turned back, I just turn 45 degree.
Second time the 3rd guy joined in and I totally ignored! They stopped it after awhile and I was like *relieve*.
Its like wth are wrong with those guys?! I didn't offended them!! Not at all. Not a tiny bit!
So today was CME, we did our CME test once again. Luckily didn't watch whatever HSM3 or Masagder 2? Whatever the spelling may be..
We were told to write about 'what makes us feel down recently'. (something like that)
I remembered I wrote something like this..
- Grandma went back to china blablabla...
- Parents don't have job, having financial problem. Sister working only in this family. Father only fend for himself.
I KNOW I always say bad things about dad. I don't want either.
But I couldn't think of anything else more and this's a freaking FACT.
On the way home after buying groceries from NTUC. *wasted money again* ):
All of a sudden, we talked about dad. We = Mum & I
In front of the house's door some more, but the main door was closed.
Guess dad heard what we said. Abit guilty. Still its the fact.
So he was painting the walls and act he didn't hear what we said. Glad for that.
I asked mum about things, he answered. And therefore I felt guilty and a bit bad about it as he was painting the wall alone.
Yet think again, he was right to do all these.
What mum fork out is like more than his but cause we didn't see the cash mum forked out so I took it for granted, thinking we was hard on dad.
But hell no! I was wrong. I must keep that thought away.
I can't be like sis blamed mum on something which is totally wrong when obviously mum is great!
Mum treat us the best and we should totally respect her! Like what sis mentioned before to me ;)
I used to spout out vulgarities just like that whenever mum quarrelled with me.
I've controlled it and I never will do it again. UNLESS IN A FIT OF ANGER.
I promised I won't do that ever again as long as I can control it.
I remembered mum kind of slap me but not all my cheeks, just half of it, oh no, less than half of my cheeks.
I shouldn't threatened her and keep ask her to let me stay overnight at friend's house and so on.
In the end, I also stayed over quite alot of times before.
Maybe without her knowing maybe she knows it but she didn't asked why was i late home whenever I stayed over at friend's house.
AFTERALL I can't ask for more :)
SO NOW. .. I shall start saving money for China's trip!!
I can't wait to see grandma. *damn worried*
Second is like PRESENTS!
Third is like SHOPPING AND OTHER STUFFS!
Fourth is like SAVING!
SHIT IT.
