Was out to market nearly two hours.
And I get all sticky feeling over my body. Yucks.
Need to take a bathe later on, again.
Didn't slept at all yesterday, didn't felt that I didn't sleep.
But I need to recharge my battery, however. Got to go and take a nap after bathing. xD
Before I forget, Grandma thought of Grandpa again. She mentioned him again.
Which's quite unusual of Grandma. I realised we seldom talk about Grandpa anymore.
He seems to not be inside our life anymore. But my heart, Grandpa is always there.
Although I suddenly felt like as if Grandpa never exist before. But I knew it, I knew it he was there with us once, before.
The photos/videos proved it, even though its like an illusion to me.
In the past, he showed us good discipline.
He was such a good man. As all of us can prove it.
He's responsible, caring and a tidy person. Many more good points you all can think of.
Even though he smoked before, but he did repent. Cause he knew he'd made a mistake.
He did many good deeds, I believe God sees it. God sees it, god can prove it.
He studied merely one year, and he know how to be a good person. How great isn't it?
By the way, I was so furious when I saw Grandpa last thumb's finger missing before he passed away.
I forgotten right of left hand. But at first, I thought the doctor cut it away as it'll harm Grandpa.
But it isn't, it's there for so many years. And I only realised when Grandpa was near death.
I miss Grandpa, I do miss him all the while.
Luckily I went to china once and spent the time with Grandpa once even though there won't be second chance anymore.
That was one of his wish, one of his wish.
I really hope and was looking forward for second chance and many more chances with Grandpa, but god didn't give in our way.
I thought Grandpa would really move into our new house with Grandma.
But he never did, he never seen it, not even for the very first time.
I didn't expect he would get so ill after he reached singapore. I didn't expect he would get himself into the hospital.
He hold on. He hold on.. Till the day Grandma came back from china with Mum, bro and dad.
Fyi, Grandpa came back alone as he knew his nose got some problem that he has to come back to singapore.
Mum, bro and dad went to china to accompany Grandma and brought her back.
Grandpa hold on.. Hold on till the day Grandma reached singapore.
Just as Mum told me to go home, I went home with Dad.
Reached home, Dad's phone rangs, knew it'll be bad, it will be..
Prayed hard it won't be, but it doesn't help, it doesn't help, it doesn't.
Hell, is it unfair?!?!? Is it?!?! How much I miss grandpa, how much I wish to see him once more.
It's never, never again. Never get the chance again. Never ever.
He's dead. I wish he'll reborn to a new family as he is such a great person.
If there's really reborn in this world, and I know he'll be repay for his good deeds.
I miss grandpa sayang me by touching my head. Talking to me so warmly, sleeping in their bed. I miss he last touched me in hospital. Ever last time.
How much I miss grandpa, he'll never know, he will never. cries-*
I know how much grandpa doesn't want to leave this world.I know how much grandpa still got to say to us.I know how much wishes grandpa still hasn't got to fulfil it.Still, I won't let bygones be bygones. I curse that biatch. I hate her. No family of mine.I do agree that God make us, human out in this world.
IS, BUT, A MISTAKE. A BIG MISTAKE.I still wish, I can replace Grandpa death.
