Sorting out my thinking . .
Temporary don't know what to do.
But I'm sorry for actually raising voice at Mum when I was just irritated by someone.
I guess I should just calm down and not think too much and let nature take it own course.
Though its weird of me to actually took the initiative to call Zulaika. But I'd a good talk with her.
Even though both of us speak funny english or we can't really pronounce some of the english words and so on..
Due to seldom speaking english, but its still okay I supposed.
She said if possible we talk outside, but guess its quite funny.
No choice, as she's malay, I'm chinese.
Now, I still can't figure out the word true friends.
I guess or perhaps I can confirm(headache in progress)
my true friends are. *still not really sure*
Guess Sharon and Huimin are one of them. Hmm.
Perhaps we ain't fated to have a dream house, f/s ring together.
May we be normal friends, is quite a good thing isn't it?
Better than acting not knowing each other when we know each other for 10years.
I don't know how to solve or solving it or not.
Cause I'm still in quite a confusion. I feel like giving up and throwing away the card.
But can I really cast it in the dustbin forever and not giving her and avoiding the problem forever?
I seriously do not know, cannot confirm.
1 word, I hate this kind of situation.
But do not like to approach her and talk about it cause history'll be repeating, again.
LETS RANDOMLY TALK ABOUT TODAY.
(though it'll be a long post)
*and yet, i'm still not sleeping as i'd so much to talk to zulaika, its just 46mins short and it ended*
P/S: she asked me out on her birthday whereas i should approach her first.
feel guilty but yet sort of revenging back. but.. why should i be feeling guilty about?
i wrote all my feelings towards her in a letter.
hope she can understand and i asked if she know she gave me attitude as someone thinks so too, so if she really gave me attitude, she should know, so she replied perhaps she got gave attitude cause she sleepy. i not sure if she's lying, but i guess i couldn't care much.
