Trying to calm down, trying to.
Still, I can't, I got to rant.
妈的。In my life, I hate the most is getting accuse for nothing! Damn it.
I scolded Dad 'nabei' in a fit of anger, I regretted it.
But he was at fault too.
Coming back home early, is a crime?!?!DAD ACCUSED ME OF NOT GOING TO SCHOOL WHEREAS I'M IN SCHOOL UNIFORM. I KNOW SOME KIDS WHEN THEY WANT TO SKIP SCHOOL, THEY FAKE WEARING UNIFORM, BUT I'M NOT THAT STUPID, I WANT TO POTENT, I'll WEAR HOME CLOTHES AND GO OUT EARLY, IF NOT SLEEP LIKE A LOG AND PRETEND I SLEPT OVER.
Was abit pissed with Mum at first, cause she thought I skipped school too.
After that, I told her about Dad accused me. She said she was kidding about saying that thought.
But Dad wasn't, he seriously think I skipped school.
Then he just sprout out nonsense and said 'potent king' and kept repeating.
Childish and irritating isn't it? Many more actions he've done in the past which is similar to this.
Wtf, I know I sometimes skipped school before EOY, but he also shouldn't be like that.
I know, 'once bitten, twice shy'. But get to the point, shouldn't he trust me when its exam period?
Its ridiculous of him to say this, and its frustrating! Screw him!
I really wish to screw him at that point of time! Grr!
He thinks he's right when he never ask me the truth.
He said it so whatever, still shoot me what 'ah lian ah hua' when it isn't true.
Doesn't mean I scolded him 'nabei', I'm a hooligan.
Everybody in this world use vulgarities, don't they.
He's like the same as my school dm.
Accused my friend as hooligan just cause she ran away from her.
Cause who want to stay back with dm just cause of attire wrong, waste of time isn't it.
Thus she said a hooligan run -.- No link isn't it.
Everybody in the world run.
I care if Dad trust me, even though I don't really care about him.
But I care about his money, cause I need money. LOLAHLOL.
I know I'm too frank. But seriously, Dad seldom automatic give me my pocket money.
He only gives me when I beg from him or remind him. Its tired to do that every now and then.
And even by doing this, it makes me stress. Then, when holiday I asked him from money when I really have none, he would say house got food, you can eat at home.
But when I'm outside, I need some money too, don't I.
Its like wtf. I really hate him for being like that. Makes me have to work, which I'm unwilling to.
As the pay is so little, yet I've to work long hours.
Even though, Mum can give me money, its hard on her. So I rather work on my own and get extra money.
He like that, never mind, but you know what or not, he asked 'even i give you pocket money, i also not sure if you'll repay me'.
Is a Dad supposed to talk like this? Maybe brother set a bad example, but Sister did set a good example despite Dad is a stingy man.
So its right of Sis to dote Mum more, I believe.
When I grow up, I earn money, I'll definitely give Mum more money too.
Cause she've been supporting us, sacrifice herself, giving us whatever we want.
Despite Brother is a quite a failure, Sister is a success, me? I still not sure.
Still, we're her children, she believe its a duty of her to take care of us.
So I would say
I'm really glad that at least I've a good Mum.Sometimes I really envy some schoolmates of mine, every now and then got parents drive them to school.
But when my Dad have a car, he don't drives me to school, he only use it for his own convenient.
Unless special event.. How much I beg him, even when I going to late, he also won't care.
If Mum knows how to drive, no matter how tired she is, she confirm will drive me to school.
Unlike Dad, always complains he tired and lazy.
When he only eat, play, sleep and sometimes work.
When Mum works at home almost 24/7.
Mum tired, I trust her.
Dad? Drink drunk only, how can I bring myself to believe him?!?!?
I seriously think I'm that useless to this family.
And I'm worry about Grandma and money not enough for this family.
You know, I seriously need a job. Sigh.
But..
Someone selfish won't help me when bestie hinted her about it.Thats why when bestie told me to ask her, I ignored. Cause I know she won't help despite how much I claimed I need money.
This goes on, the savings of mine used in Malacca is not going to get easy to save back.
