
Thought Grandma can come back home yesterday.
But I heard wrong, it's friday that she'll be coming back.
2 more days, sounds long to me.
Never mind, just 2 more trip to bright vision hospital and then I can see Grandma everyday at home.
I miss her and god bless her.:)
Went to hospital and visited Grandma today.
She was restless, moody and tired.
She kept 'sigh here and there'...
She kept nagged about her sickness and why couldn't she just die!
Sigh, I don't get why Grandma keep want to die. Partly because of Grandpa? Perhaps?
Everyday, for sure, she'll say.. "why can't i die', 'the food's not nice', 'sigh here and there'.
Yes, I understand that the pain in her leg's unbearable most of the times.
When so many old folks wish to live in this world, and Grandma's case isn't that bad.
Why she kept thinking negative? And I guessed she's really sensitive.
I'm not taking it to heart, but I seriously wanna let it all out.
Today's the first time ever in my life some sort quarrelled with Grandma.
Just because of a pathetic cup cover. And she kept nagging in Hainanese.
I don't really understand Hainanese, I said before.
Cause my Grandmother(which's my father side) passed away in the 2003year, when I was primary 3.
And at that point of time, I wasn't close with my Grandma and late Grandpa.
So I've nobody to speak to me Hainanese, that's why I lost in touch with Hainanese.
They kept running around, they were either at Singapore or China at that year.
Till my Grandpa passed away(2007), then Grandma and me started to get closer.
So she kept comment me alot of things, I guessed its bad comment, but I understand some sentence.
She said 'Why you throw away the cup and so on..."
The main point's, I never, perhaps the Nurse took it away, it isn't my fault, why's she pushing the blame on me?
Just know that it's unreasonable saying, I won't mentioned my Grandma was what kind of person before.
Cause she's old now, I just wish to give in to her and let her enjoy life.
I treasure her, she's my one and only Grandma left in this one and only world.
I just walked away after she quiet down(cause i think she know she did me wrong), she accused me which really hurts my heart.
Before that, Mum also walked away in a furious tone cause Grandma kept nagged and nagged.
But mine was a different case, I nearly dropped tears, so I walked away.
And she said 'Not going to take away the bag of things'?
And I just looked at her and find her so pitiful, but don't wanna let her see my tears.
So went out of the ward and sit on the chair, calm down myself before going down to the 2nd floor, which Mum was at there.
I was furious with Mum at first, cause I called her to come up to the ward and explain to Grandma the whole thing.
But she said she can't come up, what a joke right.
Reached 2nd floor, saw Mum, I heck care her and walked to the toilet and relieve myself first.
Afterwards, I walked out of the main entrance.(Mum was kept shouting, so embarrassed)
I heck care once again, and she said 'Jiale, you got so petty want meh'
I still heck care and finally walked out of the main entrance, thinking that Mum'll follow me.(was in a fit of anger)
But turned back, didn't see anybody, turned back third time, Mum was far behind.
I run and run to the bus stop and hide behind a poster thingy, thought Mum wouldn't see me.
How I KNOW when I look into the reflection, MUM WAS BEHIND ME!!!
We both laughed damn hard and I got a shocked, ok, that was so juvenile and crazy.
Everyone @ the bus-stop looked at us but we heck care, and Mum comfort me, asked me if I got cry, so on..
I told her 'NO'. But I actually did. She told me not to think too much about the incident anymore.
She said there's not a need to explain about the cup cover to my Grandma.
But I can't, cause I CARE. I must explain, I'll take it to heart about what she commented about me.
As this's the very first time I quarrelled with Grandma and getting accused by her when I did nothing wrong.
Its very heart aching and saddening.
Oh ya, forgot to mention.
I saw one uncle resemble Grandpa 50%, I judged.
So miss Grandpa, sigh.