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Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 1:24 AM

It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
People, do you find this sentence familiar? I'm sure you do :D

I don't agree, I rather not to loved at all cause it hurts. (i'm scare of black shadow)
But I don't totally agree this with a true heart. Just 85% agree and 15% still in doubt.

Mr Issac suddenly left us this year.
Kind of miss him suddenly, as without Mr Issac in my daily life, I feel something missing*
But I've a good news is, I got that little bit interest in Mathematics!!! xD

Tomorrow if I can wake up, I'm gonna visit 1 of my Grandmother and Grandfather's grave. 2 different places, miss Grandmother suddenly, it's been 4 years plus since she leave this earth.
(i failed to wake up)

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 9:58 PM

face challenges, not avoid it! deal with it xD

people, what's your first impression of male with eyeliner? xP
usually people think male with eyeliner is _ _ _, i've no idea why -.- (guess the word? HAHA)
its like [laughs], why people think that so when it's kinda normal.
Okay, i'm talking no senseee. lmao >.-

Forced myself to wear the wet school shoe to school today.
As I only have 1 school shoe, no choice.
I changed bag as my haversack is wet, cause of the stupid weather.
Wanted to take bus to school actually, but not sure what forbids me.
In the end, I ride bicycle to school still. (damn difficult to ride bicycle with that handbag of mine)
Felt so stupid with that handbag + irritating.
Handed my bag to Sharon, as I can't ride bicycle with that stupid bag of mine.
Thanks to her :)

Met Sharon at Cityhall mrt after I'd my lunch at home, and I'd a hard day as I carried that stupid bag of mine around for hours.

I miss LJS :)

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 2:48 PM

The Yucks Noodle ( F&N)

Cute Grandma <33

I'm real dumb!!!
okay, scold me anything you want, readers :)

ask you, who'll be so stupid go and ride bicycle in the rain? (none right?)
i was hesitating whether to ride bicycle when the rain was still drizzling @ 2pm.
but it gets heavier and heavier, then i just ride bicycle home, no other choices ~
i can't possible leave my bicycle at school, i don't feel safe.
when i was riding, i felt scary, cause trees were everywhere.
and some place i pass-by, is open area.
i felt so worried that time. cause people died from thunder/lightning before.

the rain made my eye ball blur too, thus i can't see anything.
i felt more nervous, plus people were looking at me..
i felt so embarrassed and stupid. the feelings was indescribable.
and, 1 stupid pervert came by, don't wish to elaborate furthermore #@$%*#&@
he's also riding bicycle, DAMN.
i thought i'll be dead anyway..

i thought god'll help me by decreasing the rain.
oh well, i know i'm day dreaming.
but but, sometimes i feel that god's helping we, human.
end up, the rain gets heavier than usual.

lost for words

PS: perhaps today is the worst day of my line, i don't wish to admit it is.
the noodle i cooked is kind of sucks too, the ingredient is damn weird # (home economic)
- damn, my school shoe's wet, and i've only 1 shoe. everything's wet. ARGH!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 1:54 PM

Just came back from Bedok Interchange with Sharon.
Had been talking to her non-stop, and I enjoyed it.
Still, this cute "cj7" cheered me up :D

18March08

seeing them like that its really saddening.
why must all this happened, like everyday?
grandma staying with us, is really a nuisance?
i thought they just quarrel awhile, but things don't seems like that

mum actually shouted at grandma just now.
but i know she didn't mean it.
she's taking all the responsibility,
so perhaps that's why she's so hot-temper.
i know she's stress and tied out.
but i don't know what to help more?
other than, washing all those clothes by myself, i really don't know what to help more.
i try not to make mum piss off, hope i didn't piss her off...
but grandma pissed her off, as she keep nag at mum.

seeing mum and grandma like that, really hurts my heart.
seeing mum work so hard for this family, really, very saddening ):
seeing mum wanna send grandma back to china, as aunt also can't let grandma move in her's house as she got her husband's side mother staying there sometimes.
(i believe mum didn't mean what she said)
even though, she said grandma's a extra.

i'm shocked yet confused.
i really hope things will get better.

I thought when I went home and see Grandma...
She'll be happy, as she always is :)
But she didn't smile back just now, thus I can sense something is wrong.
So I asked Mum whether did they quarrel again, and they really did.
She told me the whole incident, all start because of a "noodle".
And some nagging about other things.

mum just said grandma always use money threaten her... ):
first time see mum so hot tempered.
first time see mum shouted like nobody business and sigh* so loud.
she's really hurt this time.
i hope she don't get affect in work-

/ please god, my B already so not sensible.
please bless my mum don't trouble over anything anymore.

*grandma said she don't want stay here anymore, and wanna move back to aunt's house.
plus she wanted to wash the wheelchair herself, and she said she'll go market herself next time.
NO WAY, how can she do that? when she need to sit in a wheelchair.

AHHH. damn. frustrated.
why must aunt and mum always pissed with grandma?
is she really so unreasonable? (maybe she is, but...)
god bless ):

Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 3:28 PM

After seeing Xiaxue's photoshop video.
I realised, we really cannot trust anything on the internet.

Come to think of it...
Grandpa died 1 year and around 1 month.
Why doesn't God let Grandpa celebrate his birthday before he passed away?!
I really wonder... (but we can't blame god)

Almost late for school today, as I woke up around 6.50am.
Wanted to request for Dad's ride, but I can't bring myself to ask.
Seeing him so tired, as he drank beer yesterday, I can't bring myself to ask anymore.
So I prepared as fast as I can, and get out of the house.
Cycled to school, felt weird and breathless, as it's been weeks I didn't ride bicycle?
I lost touched in bicycle, suddenly...
Reached school, I realised that we don't need to go up to the hall today.
And there's t&a test, I was kind of nervous, as I forgotten to learn Science Test.
And I'm so bad in Science, mannn.

45minutes, the test was completed.
I don't think its hard, cause I don't take it for real. (test)
I don't give a damn, cause I'm use to it. (hp)
I sneeze loudly cause I've to, thus I didn't care the surrounding.

Why Why Why?
Why must suddenly mentioned him?
Ex? i never treat him as before

Anyway bitch, I asked cause I was very embarrassed.
Not in the same situation as you okay, you know what I mean bitch :)
Snatched my words like nobody business, simply shows that your a slut :)

Dm suddenly came into our class several times, and it does shocked us.
Ong Jiale = Failure
A failure in Chinese.
70/100, PUI

Damn hyper in class cause I really can't take it.
The word is ______. (don't wish to mention, fuck)

IRRITATED KNNBCCB FEELINGS]

Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 4:21 PM

Thanks Sharon for these photos.
[The last time us]

14th March

I can be really crazy if I want to : )

14th March 08

We're insane & we'll always be :D

Thanks Sixian and Weiting for your words on yours'blog <3

I know what to do, and thanks for those words you all've said that day.
Even though I showed you all my weak front, its real embarrassing.

But yet I know I've all of you by my side...

Sharon, Sixian, Lily and Weiting, thanks for being there :)
My true friends that'll never be forgotten, my promises to you all #

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 5:58 PM

Weiting : Sixian

Group photo <33

Yesterday went out with clique :D
It's been long since we did that so.
Watched "The Eye", and seriously speaking, I don't think the movie is really nice.
Sharon, Sixian, Liyin, Shuyuan, Lily, Weiting & Racy was there.
A pity that Shimin and Suvd was not there.

All boys, COOL ~ : Macpherson Choir Group

Pulled myself out of bed around 12pm.
Forced to go out of my house and take bus to school.
I wasn't even interested in the "choral exchange".
Instead, I wish I can faster come home.
Headed to Macpherson secondary for the "choral exchange" thingy.
It was boring, really damn boring. Luckily I'd people to talk on phone with <3
Everything was lameee, I can say.
But I think Macpherson choir is a fast learner and a better choir than us :)